Loves' Only Affliction

Twelve

It's been almost three weeks since I last heard from mumsy. I'm starting to get worried, she promised to call everyday and at first she did but she grew to stop it.
She couldn't handle the pain when his memories were ever so harshly taken away but I understood how she felt, so I didn't dwell on it, much.

I miss him so much, the hole in my heart has only gotten significantly larger. I thought it would be less painful the more time I spent away but I was wrong.
The pain has become practically unbearable, occasionally I get nightmares of that morning but I try to push it away. I try to forget it except it's been violently embedded into my mind.
The nightmares are becoming more frequent, almost every night I wake up screaming in pain from the flashback of that Christmas morning.

Mumsy came to see me yesterday, after almost not seeing her for five weeks I collapsed into her gentle arms.

"Is everything okay sweetie, I'm sorry I haven't come to see you. I haven't been holding myself together all that well recently and I didn't want to make it more upsetting for you.
Seeing him in pain, trying to remember you has been breaking my heart. He cries himself to sleep every night and his nightmares have been getting progressively worse over the past few weeks.
I'm sorry darling, I'm really sorry.
Please know that I love you."  Mumsy sobbed uncontrollably.

"Mumsy look at me, I know you have been struggling recently, I have too. I don't blame you for not coming to see me, I love you too much I could never hate you.
Did you say he's been having nightmares?
I have too, every night since it happened. I fear they are getting worse mumsy, I don't know what to do.
I'm sorry, I tried to be strong for you but I can't be anymore. I'm nothing without him.
He was the reason my heart beat, he was my epic love and in a matter of seconds he was ripped from me.
I can't do this anymore mumsy.
Please let me go!" I pleaded desperately.

"Darling, you are going to get through this. You have to live for him. He is so close to remembering who you are, he just needs some more time.
I know how hard and devastatingly painful this has been for you and you will never forget what happened but he will always love you no matter what happens, you need to know that!
You were his first love and I intend for you to be his last, you are the only girl he has ever set eyes on.
The way he still talks about you although he can't recall all you went through as children, he still loves you dear he can feel it in his bones.
He told me that himself." Mother implied seriously.

"He did?" I questioned.

"Sweetie, I told you. He will always love you, I believe he already remembers you.
He even asked me to bring you this."

Mother held out a small white envelope and passed it carefully to me.
A single tear rolled down my cheek and crashed onto the envelope as I perceived the handwriting on the front of it.