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i aint ever seen 2 mentally stable bestfriends

always one of them gotta be a psychopath.

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well she's mentally stable and we're opposites-

Scorpio (me) vs a Taurus (her) 

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"e-girl" (ppl call me that but im just a lil bit wearin black 24/7) vs a country girl (but its so true for her) 

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a f*ggot vs a str*ggot (she thought she was 🏳️‍🌈 but it turned out she aint)

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prefers cats (me) vs prefers dogs (her) 

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wants to live alone with a cat (me) vs wants to live together with dogs (her)

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mentally unstable family to the point you're scared of your own sister and father sometimes vs mentally stable younger brother and just the parents fight sometimes

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wishes to wear clothes that are deemed inappropriate by her vs shames people for wearing anything like v necks, skirts, shorts, tank tops, dresses, and more. 

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always loses to the other vs always wins because the other is a loser

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loves the color black vs hates it and says "omg emo" as a joke for wearing black (its a backhanded 'joke')

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feels controlled vs is controlling 

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got bullied and is getting bullied vs was and is the bully 

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needs attention vs gives no attention

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doesn't care about who you love as long as you still love me vs you cant love your own cat you have to love mine more 

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laughs about their own pain vs laughs about their bsfs pain 

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lets you talk with others vs doesn't want you to so they just sit in the corner of the room waiting for your attention even though they don't do the same

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i could go on 

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im starting to think my friendship with her isnt healthy.. 

but i cant end it even if i tried