I stood against the wall, crossing my arms. My icy blue eyes narrowed at the bride. Feyre. I swallowed. She looked so happy. I didn't know why I hated that so much. The rage seared through me, cold yet burning. Rhysand leaned in for a kiss and I looked away. I couldn't watch. Not without feeling like I wanted to destroy the world and light it up. Feyre threw her bouqet of flowers in the air and her bridesmaids ran to catch it but I didn't bother. Elain watched Azriel shyly and I watched her with cold eyes. No. But she ignored me. Like most people did nowadays. "Unhappy?" a voice asked. I turned around slowly. Amren. "No", I snapped, heat rushing to my cheeks. Was I that obvious? Amren smirked like she knew what I was thinking. I scowled at her and she cackled, flashing her white teeth. There was a red smear on one of her teeth and I didn't think that was from lipstick. "You know, you would be much happier if you didn't shut people out", Amren said casually. I took a sharp breath. "I do not shut people out", I clenched my jaw. She raised her eyebrows. "Is that why Cassian is standing there watching you while you ignore him?" I sneaked a glance at Cassian. He was watching me. My heart filled with something I couldn't explain. Longing? Desire? Anger? A mix of everything? When I turned, Amren was gone. Maybe Amren was right. I squeezed my eyes shut. No. She was right. No doubt. I swallowed. "You alright?" Cassian. "Why wouldn't I be?" I snapped. I winced. I was blocking him out. Again. "Sorry!" Cassian laughed but I could hear the hurt in his voice. I had caused that. I looked down, ashamed. When I looked up, I saw Elain talking to Lucien. The bastard. Hadn't she made her feeling towards him clear already? "Calm down", Cassian said softly. "He does care for her, you know", he continued. I knew. I looked around the room. Everyone was so happy. Except me. I blinked many times, trying not to let the tears forming fall. No. I would never be weak again. I would never be vunerable. But as I turned away from Cassian and left the room, a tear rolled down my cheek and I let the darkness fill me. I let myself become empty. Feelingless. Because no one could love someone who had a heart of steel. Because no one could love someone like me.
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Heart Of Steel~ A Nessian fanfiction
FanfictionA Nessian fanfiction. No one understands Nesta Archeon. No one. Everyone thinks she feels nothing. But she feels so much. Too much. So she drinks hersef away to an oblivion every night but she cannot help feel loneliness and jelousy at everyone's ha...