Stray Kids x Stay [Book 1]

Pain - Han Jisung

Jisung have never been the same after last year incident happened. He use to be cheerful, playful and outgoing but now he changed 180 degree. He always blame himself that incident happened and would never forgive himself whenever he remembered it. His friend have been worrying but he didn't care about them and just be the depress guy he is now.

He is now sitting in front a grave stone, while playing with the flower he brought. He watch the gravestone carefully as his tears start to stream down. He repeatedly said sorry and hugged his knee together.

It all happened when you accidentally come into his life over a cheesecake. You went to your usual cafe and asked the worker for your favorite cheesecake  but someone already bought the last piece. You were a bit disappointed and was about to leave the cafe when suddenly the guy who bought the last piece hold your wrist making your turn your head at him.

"Ermm...I saw you wanted this cheesecake, how about we share it?" He politely asked you and that made you sequel happily like a little girl.
"Really?!" You asked him happily and he nodded.

Start from there you two gotten close and to his surprised, you and him went to the same school and got more closer from there. After a year you two become a friend, he asked you to be his girlfriend and you gratefully accepted his confession. You two dated for 3 years.

Jisung become more himself whenever he was with you and his friend was enjoying to see him open up more. Until one day you two got into a fight.

"Y/n...I'm not in the mood to talk about this" he sigh.
"But Jisung...it's really important for us to solve it" you pout.
"Y/n, I'm tired right now so please go home and don't disturb me right now" he pinch the bridge of his nose.
"Is this because you kept on hanging out with that girl Hana?!" You raise your voice and that made Jisung furrow his eyebrow.
"What the hell are you talking about?!" He ask, raising his voice too.
"Don't lie to me Han Jisung, I know you been close with that girl" you said making him sigh out of frustration.
"Y/n...there is nothing going on with me and her" he lick his lip.
"Don't lie to me Jisung...I saw the day you pulled her into a hug" you cross your arms on your chest.
"I was just thankful for her that she helped me the other day...is that so bad?" He ask.
"Of course!! Because you're mine and hugging her will make her think you have feelings for her..you know how Hana is, she can easily catch feelings to people who treat her nicely!!" You said and that made him dumbfounded with your words.
"Y/n you're just talking nonsense right...just go home already and we will talk about this later..I'm tired" he annoyingly said.
"You're just making excuses so that you can get away from this conversation!!" You stomp your feet out of anger.
"Y/n! You're seriously annoying me right now!! Hana is much more greeter than you..at least she won't stupidly accuse me like this and disturb me over stupid reason!! Are you satisfied now?!" He throw his arms up while you stared at him with treats in your eyes.

He saw your tears and start to feel guilty that he stupidly said that to you.
"Y/n..I didn't meant to say that, I" he was about to reach his hand toward you but you slap his hand away.
"Stay away from me, go to Hana instead! I hate you!" You shout at him before running away from there.

Jisung went chase after you and keep calling for your name but you won't stop and kept running away from him. Little did you know, you were running toward a green light street and out of no wherei a car crash on you making you flew and fell down hard on the road. Jisung was shocked by the scene and scream out your name before running toward you.

"Y/n...no no no..." His all body was shaking to see you covered with your blood.
"Jisung...." You lightly said his name.
"SOMEONE HELP ME!!! No no no y/n please stay with me" he cried.
"I'm sorry, I don't hate you" you said, hissing in pain.
"The ambulance is coming y/n...please hold on" he shuttered in between his cries.
"Please don't forget about me Han Jisung, I will always love you" you gather all your strength to wipe his tears with your left hand, leaving a stripe of your blood on his cheek.

You slowly close your eyes and slowly your soul was leaving your body. Jisung can feel that your body was getting heavier and felt so lifeless. As soon as you arrived the hospital, the doctor already declare you died while you were on your way to the hospital. Jisung clench the doctor's coat and repeatedly asked the doctor to save you but it was no use.
Jisung kneel down and cried out with all his heart, not believing that you are gone forever from his life.

The day of your funeral, Jisung was holding on your picture frame. All your family, friend and him was there to watch your coffin being buried when suddenly Jisung have fainted due to all the pressure he get from losing you. Jisung become despair for a whole month and that ruined his health. His friend and family try to help him and it did help abit but slowly.

Now the present, he will always come by to your grave and talk with you as like you were still alive.
"Y/n please come back to me, I miss you so much" he sniff.
"Jisung" a familiar voice called his name making him face up to see you.
"Y/n?" His tears start to form in his eyes.
"I'm here" you show him a small smile and he pulled you into a tight hug.
"I'm sorry!! I'm so sorry!! It's all my fault" he cried on your shoulder as you gave him a pat on the back.
"Shh shh...It wasn't your fault Jisung" you said but he was still crying.
"Jisung...please take care good more of yourself" you said.
"How can I do that when you're not by my side..." He sniff, still holding you in his embrace.
"I know you're stronger then that Han Jisung...please promise me that you will take good care for yourself more" you said and he nodded on your shoulder.
"That's my quokka boy" you said and gently caress his back.
"I love you y/n...I will always love you with all my heart, you are always mine" he confess.
"I love you more Han Jisung" you said and that made him smiled.

But little did he know, his friends worriedly watch him while the person he was hugging is Lino when he thought it was you. Since that day, he started to take good care of himself and slowly forming himself back to be more happy even tho he can still feel the pain of losing you.