The Gamer and his awkward boy (English Translation)

18

Co-translator : babibubego

18. For Your Sake. If You Don’t, It’s Another Thing

Soh used to spend time in the fireplace at his grandparent’s house in London as a child, perched on the edge of the window, look at the snow falling and think about whether Santa’s going to put a gift on his father’s socks. Soh remember rushing to discover as soon as he woke up and found a mickey mouse pencil case with his father’s handwriting amusement park ticket. Soh had wanted to go a long time ago, but there was no chance because his mother had to work and Santa in real life gives him happiness.

This year’s Christmas has no snow, but Soh has Santa on his side until dawn, as seen if Thee had washed his face brushing his teeth. The person who was caught looking at him immediately raised his hand to cover his face.

“You sleep on your back all night, are you afraid of being hugged?”

“It's been noisy since waking up.”

Santa opened his arms and nodded, asking the embarrassed boy to come closer to his arms, but Soh shook his head in refusal, because he didn't want to die in P'Thee's arms.

“I didn't touch you all night, did I at least get a hug this morning?”

“Soh hasn't brushed his teeth.” Nong De spoke in a muffled voice as he pulled the blanket up to his nose and blinked his eyes, Thee laughed with his throat softly.

“If you've brushed your teeth, can I hug you?” After hearing that stupid question, Soh shook his head, “I promise to just hug, and I won't bite your lips.”

“Don't talk about last night.” Nong De's white hands rose to cover Thee's mouth, of course a cunning person like Thee doesn't miss the opportunity by kissing Soh's palm until he sees his woken face.

“Wait a minute! P'Thee kept teasing.”

“Don't change your voice like Soh, don't talk.”

“Why? why can't I be spoiled today? Will you continue to be hard on P'Thee a gentle person?” After finishing the conversation, Thee approached Soh and locked him in both arms, Soh pushed Thee's chest.

“Don't kiss.”

“No kiss, I just want to hug Soh.”

“Don't change the call to Soh, just keep calling Nong De as usual.” Nong De's voice didn't scare Thee, but instead made Thee hug him even tighter, and looked down while whispering

“Soh’s P'Thee.”

“Oh amused! stop now!”

“Soh ...”

“I can't hear!” Nong De was on his back while covering his neck and ears. Thee kissed the back of his hand until the sound was heard throughout the room, “Oh P'Thee wait a minute! Soh really pissed off!”

“Are you really pissed off?”

“yes!”

“Where is it? easy to get angry! Ouch!” not finished talking, Thee frowned while holding his chin after being hit by Soh. He lowered his gaze to Soh and stared at him with a terrifying gaze as Soh tried to escape from his arms.

“If you follow me, I will bite!”

“Oh I'm scared.”

“I'm going to bite it with my unbrushed teeth, it smells bad.”

“What is a threat?” Thee raised his voice, saw that stupid kid roll his eyes as if thinking how to fight a mad man like Thee. but in the end he just walked away because he didn't want to argue with Thee

Soh brushed his teeth very cleanly while looking in the mirror thinking about a future that would change completely. the boy cursed himself in the brain, nodded and admitted it was easier to like P'Thee, because P'Bella said that she had also met new people. so Soh will follow his feelings, he can do that.

“Nong De.”

“Yes?”

“Open the door.”

“No, you will tease me

“why am I lying? I have to go back, I have a business.” Hearing that, Soh opened the bathroom door with the toothpaste foam still in his mouth. P'Thee in his Santa suit and looks like he's going out.

“Four called, so I'll be out for a bit.”

“Oh that's great, he asked to meet and chat.” His younger brother called him, Soh thinking something good must be happening, or Four will give P'Thee a surprise.

“Don't forget to eat rice, don't eat MAMA, please?”

“Why? P'Thee playing the role of a father?”

“I'll be your godfather, right?” The young man rested his hand on the door frame and lowered his gaze to Soh. Soh was silent for a moment while brushing his teeth vigorously.

“Soh won't eat MAMA.”

“change the conversation to be indifferent.”

“who would be as confident as P'Thee? that person will definitely be the best in the world.” Can those wrinkles be counted as arguments? Thee never tasted toothpaste that sweet when he kissed Soh on the lips

“P'Thee hurriedly went to see Four.” The white face started to turn red and Thee saw that, he was determined because he didn't want anyone else to see it. Only he can embarrass Nong De.

“tonight after finishing practicing, let's take a Facetime.”

the match is almost here, if they can get through this round, the champion is just around the corner, all the P train very hard, especially P'Laem, who is not as good at playing this game as the others, it is a bit of a pressure for him. but luckily it was currently on semester break, so it wouldn't affect lessons like the seniors were worried about.

Everyone has an obligation to do that, P'Thee has a game that requires recording and editing, after which he will stream for his fans to watch every day. P'Jack works full time. P'Laem has two YouTube channels. all of them had to finish their own business until late at night before they started team practice.

“Face Time? what did P'Thee want to talk about?” Soh asked curiously, because during team practice, they always talked to each other, so he wondered why P'Thee wanted to chat afterward.

“no, actually I don't know what to talk to you either. I just imagined that if I like someone, I want to always listen to their voice for a long time.”

“...”

“So, I want to be on the phone till morning, that's what I want to do.”

“wait, the phone could get hot and might explode.”

“well, which one will explode first? the phone or am I who so happy to see your embarrassed face over the phone?” Thee picked up the phone, Soh answered in his heart that maybe his heart will explode first. How?

Soh nodded and waved goodbye to Santa. the warm feeling in his heart could not go anywhere, this was the first night they slept next to each other with different feelings. everything changed, Soh didn't know how to handle this feeling, his heart was beating fast, and he was more easily embarrassed when he was happy with the words P'Thee said. P'Thee act his way, what do other people do? does he just sit there and smile? or shake his shoulders, acting like he's already numb.

Soh still has a lot to learn from P'Thee

The young boy saw the owner of the wide back walk towards the door before stopping and turning and returning to kiss Soh's forehead.

“...”

“carefully foam the toothpaste down the throat.”

Thee smiled at Soh's blushing face he was holding a toothbrush. Those eyes continued to look at him with their ears starting to turn red. Thee repeated his kiss until his face leaned back. The young man laughed at the steadfast Soh, before finally walking outside leaving Nong De so embarrassed without bothering to see him again.

After the door closed, Soh immediately fell in a squatting position while holding his forehead like a person who had a fever, foam from his toothpaste had already come out of his mouth. after all, P'Thee was just walking and kissing his, P'Thee should have signaled first. although like Soh looks strong but his legs are shaking.

P'Thee is devil. a man who persists to the end and thinks he can't possibly kiss him. It's not just about being embarrassed about last night. how could the heart work this hard for just one person?

from now on his heart will be really tired, P'Thee, P'Thee...

*****

Thee needs some time before meeting Four, because he's from Nong De's condo. So when he reached his own condo, he took a shower and changed clothes. When Four said he had reached the Paragon, he said he would wait knowing his brother would be late. so who is the bad guy?

“You're getting taller.”

“Well, time is running out, and I'm going to keep getting higher and higher. we haven't seen each other in a long time.” Thee looked at his brother's face and felt like he wanted to punch him in the mouth, but he realized that they looked alike, so he just kept quiet.

“I won't ask. you can't even find it if you don't call me.”

“What are you afraid of? you don't even care.”

“Yes of course, how do you know if I don't care? why don't you use the shoes that i bought? Don't you know how to please your brother who has to rip the condom first, huh?” he blamed on the demon boy who stood up in disgust and made two paces apart.

His younger brother looked back and he raised his head in fear and distraction

“What?”

“The keys to hell, of course, were the car keys.” Four gave them to Thee. It was a familiar item he hadn't seen in a long time, but he wanted to ask the reason for this. “It's parked below, but I forgot which side, I'll send the picture via LINE.”

“I want to ask, what inspired you to do this.” Thee teased his little brother while making a V-sign on his chin and Four was annoyed by that.

“Dad will renovate garage and your ehanna has no parking space, dad told me to take him to Jax's house, but his house has no parking space.”

“So you wanna park it at my place?”

“Um.”

“So when will the renovations be finished?”

“I don't know, but Condo Gow has a car park for every room or you can drive on the canal near Lak Si.” Thee smiled with the annoyance of the younger brother while clutching the keychain.

They both went straight to the stationery zone, Thee looked at the brother who kept looking down and replied to the chat until he wondered who the face that made the skull boy smile was

“Wait! Give it back!” After stealing the phone, he stretched it up the end of the arm, Thee had put in a lot of effort not to let his brother take it before he was finished.

“Let me see… who is the fanatic?” ‘New year, go count down together? I mean if the Fa doesn't go with your family, maybe we'll be together’. His voice read the text while holding his younger brother in the other hand. The boy who was motionless now showed resistance, tried to fight his brother and hit his head so hard that his face trembled, ‘that day the Fa would not do anything, was alone and watched the fireworks on the balcony then went to sleep. but the important thing that day if you are with the Fa. Four will feel bored.’

The second voice of the devil brother is so bad, Four, both pulled his shirt and slapped his head, unconcern that is older or younger. In the midst of the eyes many people who may have weighed wheatear to help separate. But the evil brother laughed with pleasure and bending over imitating Fa’s voice. So Four looked and passed by.

“Can’t I just read it?”

“You didn’t ask.”

“So please?”

“Shit, you’re stupid.” The younger man gasped while keeping his phone in his pocket, kind of saying that if the elder brother wanted to take it, he would have to pass through the feet several lift before he could come in.

“Faen?”

“Don’t talk”

“Right, because it’s real.” Thee set his hair in shape after being struck by number of hit, if it’s not your brother who crawl out, you’re going to have to crunch your paw, ask who’s hit? “How long have you been talking?”

“It’s not your business”

“Since I was born, I’ve seen a few women talking to you, Mom Gowarat, a spinning shop merchant and a part time friend who talks only because of necessity.” It’s a shame that he has been half way through, Four are so little, it’s true that all men classes have been in their live, but is it about the instinct? How did he know how to manage the perfect way he has been to his twenties Thee feels humiliated

“You’ve talked a lot, but just don’t know.”

“Hey come on.” The dim eyed smiling and hugging his brother’s neck walking together, “For how long?”

Four didn’t answer, so he put his hand on his brother’s head with a gently touch like a puppy, and Thee brushed it off, “Six month.”

“Fuck, you’re talking like that but you’re still not together?”

“Um,” Four replied briefly, “I don’t want to rush.”

“It was good to talk, but at the same time it’s risky. Some women want clarity over their ambiguous status, maybe you can wait, but they’ll be waiting for you to speak. But when you see it, you don’t have to open your mind to someone else.

“…really?” Thee saw the nervous gaze and asked. it showed that Four really liked the Fa, to the point that he forgot about it.

“It depends on everyone, not all women are like that. but what I want to ask is do you think six months is too long to be faen? can’t you ask her to be faen now?”

“I do not know. I don't know if she will think the same as me. otherwise, it would be bad.”

“Little buffalo!” Thee said that while squeezing his brother's jaw as he climbed into the elevator.

“Girls who don't think anything about won't be afraid of your new year. she would say, we'll see. Four, the Fa will tell you. rather than saying, is that good?”

When it comes to women Four immediately becomes stupid, but he wants to help this boy understand more about the heart once in his life

“If you like her, go and tell her, tell her how you feel, instead of you keeping it to death.”

“I'm scared, I'm worried if she likes someone else.”

“oh so you're scared and won't say? will there be any progress? love is like that some people succeed with their first love, and there are hundreds of millions of people who have unrequited love, but they start over with other people because love takes many forms. From being overlooked by one person, it becomes seen all the time from someone else. I used to love it, I used to like this guys and I liked other people. Shit why I’m so handsome that I’m not sharp anymore?” Four looked to his brother who is bowing his hand. How could this bastard give him that good word?

“why did you break up with Bella?” Thee stopped when he was about to take his phone. Thee looked at his younger brother who probably wanted a good answer, even though he didn't expect it. but giving a good answer sounds better than upsetting twice.

“Why? It was my fault.”

“I don't ask who is wrong. I asked why?” they both stopped at the stationery zone. Four wants to pay attention to his brother rather than the colored pen in front of him. “A few days ago Bella came to the house to apologize to mom and dad.”

“Wait? apologize to mom and dad? What for?”

“It's a shame, mom and dad really like Bella, but P doesn't blame you, I feel sorry for her, but she said it's not your fault, she said it was her own wish.”

“It's not about who's wrong, in fact Bella and I couldn't get along.” Thee stopped beside his brother and took a pen to try and stared at his brother, “we fought a lot so we stopped.”

“is it really over? or just the usual bickering? Will you make up with P'Bella?” When his brother asked questions like that, Thee didn't know how to explain to Four, if he already likes someone else and that person is a man too.

“probably not, because Bella has also started talking to new people. Even though you are not dating, but starting with a person who has a future rather than being trapped with me, he is better off with someone who can give him what he wants than me.”

“I understand the profession you want, I always understand, but is that good? I'm watching you from afar, you start to lose the people around you one by one.” The young man was silent with a question, to be honest, it is extremely difficult to justify with a preference that few people understand him.

“The people around me are dad and Bella, two people who can't understand. but other people like yourself, will you also disappear?”

“....”

“If you really understand what I'm saying, doesn't that mean I'm still your brother?”

Four saw the serious expression on this bastard's face, with one glance he became speechless, and let the silence around them.

“I know you got mad when I moved, you thought that you were dumped, but look at me deeper. not just someone who is ready to throw everything just for a game, but think more rationally than that.”

“...”

“I just want time to prove myself. I already have enough money in my account to buy a house for myself. but I want to save that money to buy you a car, buy land and a house for mom and dad. But if that still doesn't prove anything, I'd like to have a few million and two million more in my account and put it in the box, tie it with ribbon and hand it over to you. everything is getting closer now, I choose not to go on a trip abroad, because I want when I am successful, you will be there. Do you understand?” Four didn't answer or nod, he just lowered his eyes as if he didn't want to discuss this topic anymore. and her sister's reaction made her feel unfailingly bad

It is still difficult, but Thee didn’t want to give up on his intention to change the minds of those around him. Four would not easily get off his anger until he returned home and apologize to mom and dad for making everything turn out like this.

The young man took all the pens and gave them to his younger brother. his younger brother frowned not understanding whether his brother was pretending to be playing or being serious. “You are crazy.”

“well as a child who scribbled the walls of my room and I often hit. I still remember that.”

“I will buy it myself, dad gave me a lot of money.”

“oh so rich. do you think you can make money What do you want? I'll pay.”

“you show off.” Four grumble with his mouth, how many timers has he argued and won? Never.

“Also good to know what kind of person you are. Take this along.” Thee handed another pen and the younger brother continued to look against

“Excuse me, are you P’Thee?”

“Yes?” upon hearing the answer, a group of girl screamed and pressed their hands until the people in the area all looked with one eye.

“P’Thee really? I’m your fan, I look your stream every day.”

“May I take a picture as well? Oh my hands all are shaking. I never thought I would meet you here.”

“P’Thee can you sign the phone case for me? And give three hearts too.”

Four automatically took a step back as his brother stood in front of him. Just like in high school, someone tried to take a picture on the internet to let the world know that he was the younger brother of a famous gamer. At the time, Four was not embarrassed, but he didn’t feel good about being asked about his brother because he saw him as a passageway.

‘You just say that you don’t know enough.’

Evil brother said so, this bastard always protect him from his own happiness, which is what Four was always aware of.

“Who did P’Thee come with?”

“Is it P’Soh? But his face look likes P’Thee.”

“Oh...” both the evil brother and the girls looked towards him. Four stood still and smiled as wildly as every time he used to do when someone asked about his brother. “No, this is my real brother.”

“Real brother?”

“My younger brother.”

“There you see.” Thee laughed as he hugged Four’s neck, pretending to exert vigorously until he heard as noise before releasing it. The son of bitch!

“So cute, can I take your picture?”

“let's just take my own photo he doesn't like the photo, I am afraid that your phone will break and have to buy a new one.

“Oh okay, I wanna take a photo with Thee.”

“Come on over here.” Four squinted looked at his brother who bent slightly to take a photo with a group of girls.

“Will P'Thee stream tonight at the same time?”

“eight o'clock as usual, before having to bath and eat, then we talk about it.” Sweet words from the mouths of handsome gamers make them weak and also teasers by making mini hearts to finish them

“huh i love you.” The fans also gave mini hearts before shouting and walking away from the place.

“I almost took my scene. Luckily I dressed up today.” This bastard is still joking on purpose not to say directly about protecting Four from fans

“Nervous.” Four tucked into his shirt and returned to his pen as the bastard kept talking about the absurdity.

“Uh you...”

“Hm?”

“I actually hurt my leg while on the motorbike. Jack, can you take me to the condo? na na na na ...” the elder turned to turn his mouth to call for sympathy. Blinks his eyes rapidly, making mouths protrude like a child wants a paw. The younger made a stinky face as if he wanted to chase him away, took a rope to tie his neck to the car and dragged it back to condo.

*****

“what smell is this?”

“Ohh it's a messy Christmas day.” Thee hurried to throw away the smelly Salmon cake. He has lots of regrets about last night, he can't eat anything and his only thoughts are on how to make up with his younger brother. he was afraid that Soh wouldn't understand and wouldn't talk to him. he never thought of going back to Bella after Soh helped him a long time ago.

“Celebrating a birthday with friends?”

“almost celebrating. why don't you sit?” the young man kicked the pad with his foot. Four glanced at the room that had been used by his aunt a few years ago, but is now a nest for his brother to work.

“I will be right back.”

“hey, where are you going in a hurry? just sit down first.”

“For what?” The young man raised his eyebrows and looked at his brother who was walking to open the door of the balcon and spray the whole room. before returning to gameplay and TV and handing the joystick to him “What?”

“it's weaving device.” Four hands pretend to slap his brother, but this time it's fighting, it's like a fighting with a mirror.

“I stopped playing a long time ago.’

“Yes, but I saw you playing *FIFA with your friends from IG, don't be slick, who's got the first ball to feed you from the wet bin you use childhood fears as an excuse.” When Four was a child, Thee always told him that Four was picked up from the trash, not his parent’s biological children.
*FIFA soccer game

Four realizes that in addition to his brother's madness, he also pays attention to Four.

“do you still like to eat kung pang?”

“I like it but have reduced it for fear of diabetes.”

The two siblings were chatting while playing games, he didn't want to let Four go home, at least he wanted to chat with him more than answering LINE because besides this child, he didn't know where to ask about his family.

“and dad still likes to sit and chat with Goo at Tom Yam's Noodle shop?”

“um.”

“and the shoes that I bought have you tried it?” frankly the chance to send a message. Four then turned the situation back into making the game. The couple tried to win each other unacceptably. Like in the high school, secretly turn off the light to play the game, and they got hit in the morning.

“I wear it.”

“well good then.” he was very comfortable like a sunflower in the sun, Thee smiled while controlling the players in the game. rocking and dodging until he heard the sound of a jaw from the other side that is still weak about the game.

“take dad for a health check.”

“Why should I? why don't you do it yourself?”

“because I still can't do it. can you please my dad as your dad?”

“so when should i do it for you” Thee glanced at the person next to him to see where this question was headed. while he was frustrated, didn’t want to make it, or asked because he wanted to know when he would return with success. “you know dad is getting old. Like Agong and Ama, don't you think they can still see you succeed?”

“what the fuck you real bad mouth.” Thee pushed his brother's head. it wasn't a lie, Four's words carried his breath away.

“I am telling the truth, it will happen one day. I'm not saying that because I love dad as well as Agong and Ama, but I want you to start thinking carefully. don't let the ego cover your eyes.”

“It's true that I acted stubbornly towards dad before I moved, but did you know that if I came back now, I would get nothing but coldness and insulting words.”

“make it faster. You don't have to buy me a car, just save your money. but come back home to show you are fucking tired and successful. I won't curse you someday. but will still support so that father curse you as little as possible.”

Four tries to steal the ball from his brother, unnoticed pressing the joy button until his thumb hurts. Knowing that if he forced his brother too much, he should hurry back home by taxi and help his mother's father look after the shop. Saying things that he had been keeping in his heart for so long was not a good idea, because his demon brother wouldn't listen.

“okay.”

“what?”

“I have two matches, if I make it through, the end of January will be the first win that will send my team to Korea to compete.”

“...”

“I'll go back to mom and dad, sit and listen to whatever makes everyone comfortable.”

“...”

“But until then, I think we need to go out to eat and talk nonsense like we used to.” Four almost lost control and he let his brain follow his brother's words and he nearly shot in the door.

“nothing is the same forever.”

“in fact we are not together anymore, it doesn't mean we can't return the same feelings, your heart is still closed, how can i fix it?”

Four is confused with his own feelings, between anger and understanding. angry that his brother escaped and has a life of his own, but at the same time he understood why his brother did that. plus he often heard nagging about his brother from his family, it added to his anger at Thee.

“I know I'm a useless brother, but I want you to help me find a solution to fix this.”

“...”

“I'm not the cool brother you can follow nor a respectable brother, but because we live alone, father always told me to take care of you, at that time I did it not because it was my job but I did it because my heart wanted it. Even though you are mad at me, don't forget that you have a big brother beside you who is ready to be your foot pad.”

“…”

“if you are in relationship with Fa, you must know how to prevent it. don't be the one who only dares to make mistakes and get her pregnant. because in the future, a woman will fall into your hands as soon as you take off your pants.” Thee took his hand off the joystick and put his head slowly, he still wanted to do his job as a big brother even though he threw him out when he was in his twenties but in his eyes Four was still a child

“I know.” Four smiled faintly as he turned his gaze from the TV to his brother. To see that it moved its mouth to complain without sound and press the joy hard, which if it was sake, would have been kicked down on the sofa.

“Grab dinner with me first then go home, I’ll send you.”

“where are you taking me? doesn't your leg hurt?”

“Oh it was gone a moment ago.”

“you fuck!”

“damn!”

*****

The practice of the team becomes tense as both the Killer and the Survivors are getting better and winning each game becomes difficult. But it was consider a plus because the harder it was overcome, it mean that the Pooy Brother developed more than yesterday.

Thee recall a sponsor contacted in the night of twenty-eighth December to discuss the long term support of Pooy Brother and that means they all have their own jersey with sponsor logos attached to the back. Pooy Brother had never come this far, it is far enough to help each other figure out how to name the team in English, if one day the ability takes it further than BITEC Bangna.

Everyone started to feel restless and even more pressing, so even telling P’Tap to join in the practice too. He claimed that even if it was a backup position, he had to catch up with the youngsters while Jack saw it quietly, didn’t speak, but saw that he was that he was secretly playing at the office until someone took the news to sue the boss.

Nong De said, ‘Soh was so excited that I couldn’t sleep. What should I do, P’Thee?’ if he next to Thee, he swear that he will open Soh bangs, kiss his forehead and cover him with cloth and console him saying ‘I will hit the ‘End Of Worm Food’ team, you don’t have to be afraid.’

As for the sharp guy, as the team went to sleep, he was practicing like crazy because of the sponsorship. Afraid being cursed when competing against good team, then sip M-Hundred Fifty and run the electricity until morning. P’Tap said that bastard had been working hard like that.

Thirty-one December is a vacation, everyone gathers in the early in the evening to eat pan fried pork for the New Year and the topic of discussion still the same mixed with competition.

“Well, I’ve been to the fore, I don’t know how to play DotA, I’m sure he will going to play the same game as us.” Laem the one that opened the topic. He heard that, so he wanted to look up to heaven in case he found Ten.

“Screw him, just give him fist!”

“Fuck you.” Laem clapped his hand as he poked his arm for the people next to him to follow, he was Soh.

“LV had a contract with Blue Viper since DotA era, it’s uncommon to embrace Ten as a backup. Ten is not a player, it’s better to upgrade to a level faster than the average person because of his ambitions.”

“Accidently you might be able to play a real person.” Every eye turned to the bastard “I’m secretly saying LV should break inside because the killer’s sci-fi brother just updated the face this morning until the fans come in and gave me a lot of encouragement.”

“Hmm…”

‘I’m going to knock you down five years ago.’ Pointed to pickpocket and pick up the coin.

“If it’s true, it’s going to be different one, how’s it going?” Tubtap complained he looked tired while Jack sat calmly and lift liquor until Soh raise his hand to tell Jack slow down.

“I understand that you guys are in, but in order to meet LV, you must win over ‘End Of Worm Food’ first.” Tubtap asked as he grabbed the pork in his own plate to eat at the computer table.

“But I’m not one of those people who come up with a round by round plan, so I will plan to lure him from now. So that you should not be impatient with anyone.” Thee laughed, he held glass beside him, which the boy quickly accepted and turned to ask for help from Laem again.

“Take it.” Jack said after long silence. Everyone was amazed to see that it had an opinion before anyone else, when it was blurred as soon as it was about Ten, “If you want to play a game with us, you can say what the finals plan is like.”

*****

“why wash your hair before bed? you will catch a cold.”

“Soh doesn't like P'Thee's pillow to smell like cigarettes.” The young man raised his hand and said with an impression. saw the boy walking out of the bathroom he sat down and wiped his hair down on the sofa as he sat in in front of a computer desk at 11pm.

After eating the pork pan, everyone parted ways to celebrate the new year. Laem invites Jack to count down following destiny during a midnight drive to the beach and wish him a Happy New Year like a lonely person. P'Tap celebrates the new year with his wife at the shop. he and Nong De return to the condo because they plan to play games all night. but because the story about Ten appeared in conversation that night, Thee felt a little heavy.

“P'Thee went to take a shower and wash your hair too, so you don't get drunk.”

“I'm not drunk.”

“drunk, you don't walk straight and I can smell liquor from here. earlier P'Jack told me not to leave P'Thee alone when drunk, because P'Thee will walk to the balcony and lose his head, Soh can't believe.”

That little speaks really well

“you worry like that, you better be my faen.” the drunk man screamed and fell on the sofa. Soh raised her hand in fear that she'd be kissed again “what is this smell?”

“it's the same smell P'Thee uses every day.”

“Really, why does it smell better when it’s in your body?” Thee drew his arms on the back of sofa, leaning towards the child and wrapped his shoulder until he was left with just a minute left. The condition is no different from the one struggling to get into café.

“But why does P’Thee have to sit and squeezed Soh? There are a lot of places.”

“Lack of warmth.”

“Go take a bath. If P’Thee is still stubborn, Soh will really back to condo.”

“Are you threatening me again?” thought of the last sentence that was as light as whisper plus not turning to look at each other again.

“Yes, Soh intends to be a brutal person. especially when living with P'Thee, Soh won't let him anymore.”

“Yes, you won't get pregnant.”

“What?” Nong De widened his eyes; Thee imitated his face with a laugh before he got out the way because he was pushed on his chest. “when you are drunk and dirty, you become unconscious and become a threat to others.”

“Not with other people, only with the people around here.” Soh blushed because P’Thee’s eyes that come with the smell of alcohol, he tried to avoid his gaze and continued to wipe his hair, but the other party keep staring and he felt going to explode because shy.

“Go take a bath...” a muffled voice is half an order, if Soh insist that he will rebel against him, but Thee felt faintness that he probably didn’t even know.

“Take this.”

“Yes... Oh!” In the blink of an eye, Soh turned towards the bigger person, before realizing that his left hand was swung because being kiss on the cheek. “Owh P’Thee, I’m sorry, Soh didn’t mean to.”

“Shit…” Thee thought he was actually drunk because he was able recover after getting hit in the left cheek until his cheek turn red. Reaction to Nong De is not only good in the game, but works well in his face as well, burning heat.

“Is it hurt a lot?” at least he’s kind enough to see the inequity of the moment because of the alcohol poisoning rather than ghost that is called to the home.

“What happened?”

“Go take a shower, don’t play anymore.” Soh punches the other man gently before his fist is grabbed by a very wayward drunk man.

“Don’t fall asleep, stay over the years with me.”

The word ‘stay over the year with me’ makes people listen feeling like summer, Soh tried to pull his hand back, but Thee wouldn’t allowed it, so he nodded slowly.

“Yes, Soh going to sit here and wipe my hair.”

“Cute.”

seeing his face he felt guilty, a moment ago Soh seemed to slap him hard, P'Thee's cheeks were very red.

“Listen carefully, if you scream, it means you hit your head on the floor…”

“and wear clothes in the bathroom, so when Soh enters the bathroom, I will not be shocked.” he wanted to write a million letters and sprinkle them from balcony to let the world know how cute his future faen is. Thee agreed to stand up and take a shower, she planned it would be finished in five minutes.

*****

The new year countdown is different from every year. Thee were never lacking in romance, but looking at the ceiling in a dark room with Nong De is still exciting thing. This is a second time spent with a boy who he loves. Thee will try not to force the greasy more than this because he is afraid of Soh.

“Have you slept yet?”

“No yet.”

Eleven minutes

“Excited?”

“Yeah I’m so excited.”

“Because of the new year or because lying next to me when the new year approaching?”

“P’Thee already knows the answer, don’t make me shy.”

“Okay.” He lightly laughed in his throat, putting his right hand under the blanket, find the warmth from Soh’s soft hand until he finds it and slowly join together.

“P’Thee’s hand is so cold.”

“Your hand is hot.”

“P’Thee likes winter or summer?”

“I like cute. I like this one.” The person who was flirted in the dark smiled until the cheeks ached. Soh breathed on his lips as he closed his eyes tightly as P’Thee tightened his hand.

“Soh likes winter.”

“How much do you like it?”

“A little more than the rainy season.”

“Can you fight me like you can fight in the rainy season that we like less than the winter?” Soh felt the unique scent with the force of the bed as P’Thee moved closer.

“Enough to fight…”

“How much can Soh fight? Please tell P’Thee.”

“Take it again, being in the dark room like this isn’t mean that Soh not shy. I told you not replace the call…” Nong De said in a muffled voice.

“But I like Soh more the summer in Thailand, don’t you know?”

“Whoa so boastful!”

“Oh honestly, you think how many summer days in Thailand, if counted without consideration for the meteorological department, would have struck three hundred.”

“Joke like this seem to be more frustrating than embarrassing, I don’t know how…” Thee dropped laughing because his own joke, but when he heard Soh laugh, his heart swelled until he began move into the same pillow.

“Please move closer, I want sleep close to you tonight.”

“P’Thee is constantly pushing Soh here…”

“But for now, do I get permission first?”

“Stop talking to Soh, right now my face is very hot, it seems like a fever.”

“Or want to change it?”

“If you pity Soh, don’t make your mind dance so often.”

“You’ve always been selfish, Nong De.” He grabbed his brother to turn around, even if he doesn’t see Soh’s face, Thee feel like a lump shrinking because of the embarrassment.

“If your heart doesn’t dance, you’re dead.”

“Playing a joke? Look at the timing.” Thee gently hold his waist to hug, but this time the boy quite cooperative because he doesn’t push him out like he always does, “Cuddle through the years.”

“If it’s hot, you can’t blame Soh.”

“I will make the room colder.”

“If you sweat, the blanket will stink to.”

“I’ll send to maid.”

“…”

“Are you bored with me?” For the first new year together, Thee couldn’t wonder what kind of time his brother would spent a new year. He doesn’t want to get bored, but if taking him to the countdown in crowded place, he’s not going to like it.

“No, are you tired of Soh?”

“No, I feel safe.”

“Is it safe?” even if he didn’t see, Soh can feel like Thee is looking at him.

“Yes.” The young man softly stroked the cheeks of the person in his embrace. “Safe from all the fear that you created.”

“When I heard this, it feels good. Strange, I don’t know how...”

“Allow me to be embarrassed.”

“Yes…”

“One minute…” he looked at the clock from his phone, before pressing YouTube and search music in less than ten second, the sound of fireworks from outside sounded.

Hello new year, I’m not going to let this go, but I’m going to have to go back to my house.

“…Ugh.” Soh raised his hand to cover his mouth, laughing at the song that P’Thee was playing. The young man looked at the person who was holding him, before the smile fade away as the light from phone makes the see each other more clearly.

The music stopped, but the light from the screen remained, Soh slowly closed his eyes as the bog man moved closer and finally their lips touched. The first kiss in the first minute of the new year was slow, yet strong with emotion. The kiss of the toothpaste comes with a nurturing tongue, flickering until the baby from the world unknowingly exerts force to the other pajamas.

The owner of the handsome face languidly withdrew the kiss, Soh accidently licked his lips, and then pouted at the person who had cause him to disappear into the white world in spite of the dark room. The smile of a pretentious person is gentler than every time and he couldn’t resist the feeling that it increased every day. Soh never thought that he would like P’Thee so much.

“Can we stay together like this again next year?”

“Just entered the new year, P’Thee has already thought about next year…”

“Yes, because next year I will talk about the next year again.”

“…”

“To the point of thinking that far, do you think how much I like you?”

The young man smiled as he slid forward and kissed the person in his arm again. Thee had been already restrained himself many times. But Nong De, have you ever stopped your own cuteness, he didn’t care if the kid was good at kissing or awkward, because the younger brother was so perfect that he didn’t want any complaints.

Soh mumbles in his throat as he placed his hand on Thee’s chest. The kiss that used to be softness gradually becomes intense until the sound of gasping for breath. It was different from the first kiss on that day when Santa at least spared him by plucking his lips.

But now it’s not… P’Thee’s tongue was still turbulent, with a hand that slowly gave up his shirt until he had to lower his hand, but the body that used to lift heavy object become stubborn because of the touch of the hand that were caressing the skin.

Soh closed his eyes tightly, tense to the end of the pain that he never did and P’Thee was the first to make this happen. He didn’t dare to deny what was to come, one heart is afraid but  the other heart surprisingly open the neck that used to be warm because it was tucked under the blanket, it was cold because of being kissed by the person in front of him.

“P….P’Thee...”

From what had been lying on his side, he was put on his back. The youth looked at the other man who stood up against him, clenched the neck of his shirt and pulled it off his head, revealing a mannequin’s body, Soh didn’t think he was embarrassed because he was man too.

No longer face that is full of cheekiness. Soh tried to pull the hem of his shirt, but when P’Thee lifted his head to meet each other’s eyes, he turned into flaming wax because of those eyes that convey the seriousness of the summer.

P’Thee’s tongue has never been so dirty, even when interrupted during a kiss, it is not as cold as when flicking out, lick the tummy tuck down because of the touch that is called cot, but not really hot.

“Oh… don’t.” Soh can’t be stopped, before raising his hand to cover his mouth, he restrained the sound of himself that almost came our because of the hot tongue.

…chasing you to run around the world is not so tired at all

How do others endure? Both being seen with those eyes, both being touched from every way, P’Thee is a Killer both in games and in real life...

What if I let it go beyond this? Many feelings are hitting each other in his head. Soh couldn’t think of anything. If i asked to stop right now, will be P’Thee get annoyed or not? But if I let it go how will it be?

P’Thee had a story like that before and must have always been there, but if he likes a boy like Soh, he has to be patient, right? I feel guilty, P’Thee would be annoyed if Soh refused.

“…!!!” The young man closed his eyes tightly as his tongue touched the sensitive part of Soh’s chest, he was unaware that he was holding his breath, even his lips cry for the air before being stolen again with a soulful kiss.

The blanket crumpled Soh with a heart pounding stronger than the sound of the fireworks that had stopped. He didn’t dare to open his eyes to look at P’Thee, he didn’t know if because of his timidly or fear something that never happened. But in the end, the sensation that caused the heat to burn through the whole body stopped until he had to open his eyes, before he found the owner of the wide back turned his back to the end of the bed as if he was thinking about something.

P’Thee would be upset that Soh didn’t have a breast like a woman for sure

“Where are you going, P’Thee?” shouted Soh at the person who walking away with the fear it had left. Can you not take it like this? They both just kicked off a great new year together in just few minutes.

To the heart, it said to be gradual, but Soh was afraid of being hated, if it was because of the matter of not being able to response, he would be very sad, but can you not be angry? P’Thee can you continue to like a stupid boy like Soh?

The tall man turned around with sigh, at the time Soh saw how awkward P’Thee was, what should I do… if I was shouted, my tears would flow, should I get up and hug him? If I begging for a bit, P’Thee may be in a better mood.

But in the end, his anxiety was slapped and squirmed, when the previously turbulent hands were holding onto his crotch and lick his lips to Soh.

“I’ll go and take it out.”

“W….What?!”

“Please let me borrow you face for ten minutes, I think I can’t do it anymore.”

“Oh…what?...P”

From what had been speaking clearly, he suddenly stammered as he saw another visibly bulging crotch. Soh hurriedly dropped to bed and pulled the blanket over, before closing his eyes tightly hiding his face with a pillow relieve the shame at this time.

“Headphones beside the lamp, put it on if you don’t want to hear your name from the bathroom.”

“Soh hated P’Thee...”

Damn it… people think do much they are so bad