I'm Here (SakuAtsu)

Bitter Sweet

Atsumu's POV

My relationship with Kita is perfect, or at least that's what it seemed. We are the perfect captain and setter dynamic. As if we are the kings of the team. We always go on cute little dates, and even hangout after practices. I thought he was the one, the one I would spend the rest of my life with. Kita gave me a reason to smile, and to live every single day. My only concern was if he felt the same way. Today we have a practice game against Itachiyama. They're a pretty tough team, but nothing we can't handle. Of course all of this is what I had thought. Until, the beginning of the second set. "Hey Kita babe! Good job winning the first set!" I smile as he just nods his head. He has some sort of nervous look on him while he rubs the back of his head. "Hey Atsumu can we talk real quick?" That's weird, he normally doesn't say my name unless I've done something wrong. Usually it's just Tsumu or some other cute nickname. What did I do wrong this time? I follow him off to the side of the Court where we can be alone. "What's up?" I ask as his eyes dart in all directions. He won't even make eye contact with me. "Well I- Um I was meaning to tell you this after the match, but I can't wait." I don't know where this is going. It could be really good, or very bad. I just have to have high hopes it turns for the good. "Just tell me babe.." I smile reaching my hand to cup his face. He flinches away, and starts rubbing his arm. "That's the problem... I don't think we're really working out. You know, as a couple. I didn't want to say anything because it would effect the game. I just couldn't keep it from you any longer." He begins to explain, but all I hear is my heart shattering on the floor. So, is this the way of saying we're over? I thought everything was going so well. "Kita please, I'll change! Just tell me what I did wrong." I fight back tears as he only nods his head. "You did nothing wrong, I just don't have the same feelings toward you." With that he walks away, and joins the rest of the team. Nobody had even noticed our side conversation. The moral is still going, and everyone is so excited. Well, almost everyone. I have to at least try to pretend everything is okay. One bad mood can ruin the entire teams attitude. Just fake it until you make it. I walk back over to the team as well, and my brother stares me down. It's weird, but he always gets protective over me. He knows something's up, but I just put on a fake smile. It hurts, all I want right now is to cry. To cry and lay in bed listening to sad music. Everytime I think I have something good, it never lasts. "Alright guys let's go!" Kita yells as we run back on the court. I can hardly even focus on the game, but I know I can't drag everyone else down. The entire second set I never said a word. I just do the usual sets that we've always done. He didn't even properly break up with me. It was just a simple sentence, and him walking away. I guess it doesn't matter either way. I can't make him have feelings for me. "Atsumu..." I hear someone call, but it's to late. The ball drops to the ground right beside me as I shake my head. "Sorry! I'm focused now I promise!" I clap my hands together and bow my head. I can feel Osamu's eyes burning holes in the back of my head. "I'm fine I swear..." I let out a small chuckle that sounds more like a whimper. The game then continues, and we won by only two points. This set was rough, maybe because my mind is focused on other things. The entire team is excited as they all go to the locker rooms to wash up, and change. "Atsumu what the hell was wrong with you out there?" Osamu comes up behind me as I just stare at the ground. "Well Kita broke up with me after the first set..." I start to explain as he rolls his eyes. "Get over it.. It's not like he's much of a catch anyway. Plus, you can't drag the team down with your personal drama." He crosses his arms as I just sigh. I know my brother means well, he just has a hard time showing it. "If he says anything to you about it, tell him to talk to me. I'm sure I can settle this quickly... " "No Osamu don't hurt him... I know how protective you are, but I don't want him to get hurt." I quickly stop him before he could finish his sentence. Kita doesn't deserve to be hurt just because the feelings weren't mutual. Actually, I'm kind of glad he told me, and didn't lead me on. The pain is still there, but I do see where he was coming from. "He clearly didn't care about hurting you. Telling you that in the middle of a game, knowing you will be upset and unable to focus." That made the heartache a little more pressuring. Did he even care about me to begin with? Was all of this relationship just a joke to him? I put every emotion, I put all of my time into it. "I found another ride home I don't want to ride with him.. I need some alone time." I say as he just nods. "Let me know if you need anything. Text me and let me know you're safe I might be at Suna's." He waves before going to our bus. I practically hide in a corner until I know my entire team has left. Creeping my way back into the locker room, I let it all out. Tears stream down my face as his words replay through my mind. "I just don't have the same feelings for you..." He didn't even cry, there was no sadness in Kita's eyes. It was as if he was happy to finally bring me down. I hadn't realized it, but my cries became more aggressive and I was just yelling out one word, "Why!" I was yelling so loud it echoed against the walls, and I had to hold my head to stop myself from getting a migraine. I lied about having a ride home, I have no idea where I'm at, and I'm to emotionally unstable to even think about walking around. My stomach feels like its twisting in knots, and my eyes burn from trying to wipe away the tears. "You know for someone who just won a game you sure don't act like it. Shouldn't you be celebrating with your team right now?" I jolt up looking around for the boy who is talking. I didn't even hear him come through the doors. I quickly try to recover, but it's no use. I kept all those emotions in as long as I could, but now the seal is broken. The boy is from the other team, he has black curly hair, and is wearing a face mask. Not just that, but I realize he's making sure not to touch anything at all. "By the way you missed your bus. Do you have anyone coming to pick you up?" He asks taking another step closer. "N-no.. It's okay I'll walk around or find my way with GPS." I say trying to control my breathing. "You don't have to hold it in... It sounded like you were hurt pretty bad." He says pausing before standing before me. I look up into his deep black eyes. Why is he being so kind to me? "Uhm.. Also it's raining pretty hard outside. I really would hate to see you walk in it especially that far. Theres no school tomorrow since its Sunday do you want to come over my place?" He asks shyly. I would feel awful to concern him with my own problems. I should have just rode the bus anyway. All of this is my fault. "I don't want to bother you with my problems.. I'll just walk and-" "Well since you're being stubborn get your things. I'm not letting you walk late at night in the rain." He says this time more sternly. This guy really isn't going to give me an option is he? Not that I really mind, but I'm just confused on why he even cares. "Okay well I'm Atsumu Miya.." I reach my hand out as he just stares at it. "I'm sakusa Kiyoomi.. Sorry I'm a Germophobe I don't do handshakes." He says nodding his head. Oh, so that explains the mask and everything. Well no issue, at least I know he's clean. "By the way before entering my car please use the showers. I can't have you contaminating my car, and home with unnecessary germs." He pulls out a small bottle of hand sanitizer and practically drenches his hands. Oh, so he is a huge germophobe well at least he's straight up about it. "Oh okay.. I won't take long then." I say nervously as he just nods. "Take your time, I'll be waiting for you outside." He says again, and walks out the locker rooms. What the hell just happened? Is this guy really going to wait on me? I quickly jump in the shower, and rinse my body off. So his name is Sakusa Kiyoomi Huh? Wait, isn't that the other teams ace? I remember watching him spike the ball in the practice game. He has so much power, and looks as though he's flying. I wish I could set to him, just once. Of course my brother is an excellent ace, but this guy's energy was just different. I quickly get dressed, and race outside. I don't want him waiting on me for to long. Sakusa wasn't wrong, it's pouring rain out here. "You ready?" he asks swinging the keys with his finger. "Y-yeah! Thank you so much." I say a little embarrassed. The more I look at him the more I realize how handsome he is. "Well then, let's go." We walk to his car, and before I know it we're headed off to his house.