I'm Here (SakuAtsu)

What Happened?

Atsumu's POV

The car ride is a little awkward, and full of silence. My heart still hurts from earlier, but I don't want to bother him with my crying. Besides, he probably doesn't want to hear about my drama anyway. "I have my own apartment. My parents practically pay for it, but we don't live together. I'm telling you this just in case you were nervous." He mutters pulling into an apartment complex. "Also I assure you the outside may not be much, but I'm very clean. My apartment is possibly the cleanest one out there." We walk into one of the buildings, and down the hall. As he opens the door, my mouth practically drops. "First thing please wash your hands before touching anything." He points to the sink, and I do exactly as he says. I would hate to make him uncomfortable. Especially after being so kind to me. "This is beautiful!" I say looking around at everything. He has white carpet that looks brand new with black leather sectional, and recliner. He has a few plants, a white lamp, and a huge flat-screen TV. This guy has to be rich! "Everything is clean so please keep it this way.. And thank you. Not many people have been here. I thought it may have been to plain." He scratched his head nervously before taking a seat on the recliner. "So Atsumu was it? What happened?" His eyes narrow as I try to catch my breath. If I talk about it I may breakdown again. I don't want to do that, especially in front of him. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want too. I was just curious what made you that upset." He's now staring into my eyes that tears have already began to form. I take a seat on the sectional in front of him, and take a deep breath. "You'll probably just make fun of me, or be weirded out." I say chuckling to myself. I'm not sure how this guy even feels about gay relationships. "I won't make fun of you. I can tell this was important." His voice is soft, and comforting. Nothing like I'm used to anyway. "Well, I was dating our captain. We had been dating for almost a year now. I thought he was the one I'd spend the rest of my life with. He gave me a reason to smile, and keep living. He made me so happy that I felt I could do anything. Well, it turns out the feelings weren't mutual. After the first set of our practice game he pulled me off to the side. He told me he just doesn't feel the same, and walked away. We didn't even talk about it, or anything. He just walked away from everything, and then pretended it didn't bother him. Well, maybe he wasn't pretending. He didn't care my heart had shattered into a million pieces. He didn't care that my life felt like it ended. All of the time and effort I put into that relationship was for nothing. Oh, sorry... I didn't know how you felt on gay relationships I don't want you to be uncomfortable with me..." Tears are falling down my cheeks as he just stares into my eyes. "I'm a germophobe not a homophobe. There's nothing wrong with being gay, and that doesn't make me uncomfortable. You are valid, and you shouldn't feel nervous telling people about your pride. On another note that guy sounds like a real tool. He should have waited for a better time. That and if he really acted like it didn't bother him he should have told you sooner. I'm sorry that happened, and I understand why you're so upset. I'm not really good at comforting others, but I'll try my best." He says finally pulling off his mask. I see a little smirk spread across his face as I just nod. These are the words that I needed to hear. Just someone who would actually listen to me. "You've done so much already, thank you. You've been so kind to me, and I don't even know how to repay you." I say as he just chuckles. "Just keep your head up, and stay out of trouble. That's how you can repay me." he smiles as I just nod my head. I never would have imagined this conversation ever happening. Especially with someone I had just met. "You're the setter aren't you? You look very similar with your ace." Sakusa tries to make small talk to distract my mind, it's working. "Oh yeah! That's my twin brother Osamu. Yeah I'm the setter, but it's really nothing. He's the better half anyway." I laugh nervously as he just glares at me. "Quit putting yourself down. As an ace myself I recognize good players when I see them, and I noticed you more. An ace is only as good as his setter who gives him the ball. The setter, and the spiker have to be linked to be unstoppable. Although your brother does have the power, and talent he only does so good because of your sets. You need to give yourself more credit." So, I ended up getting lectured afterall. All of the things he's saying though, I needed to hear for so long. No one has ever said these things to me. "I want to set to you...  Oh sorry! That was really random wasn't it? I watched you spike earlier today, and it was like time had stopped moving. Youe power, your form, everything just came together like instruments in an orchestra. Your setter is a lucky one." With that I could see his cheeks brighten in embarrassment. "R-really? I didn't figure anyone would notice me like that. I'm not as big as other players, but I'm reliable." He smiles a bit which makes me smile. This guy isn't to bad. "I only have one bedroom so I hope you don't mind the couch. Make yourself at home, just please make sure it stays clean. Also here..." He hands me a little bottle of hand sanitizer. "While you're awake please wash your hands frequently. This sanitizer has aloe in it to prevent your hands from drying out." he nods as I put some in my hands. Sakusa really takes germs seriously doesn't he? I'm surprised he's even letting me stay in his home. "Also I apologize if I'm being over bearing. It's just I prefer to stay clean over anything else. I've always had this problem, which leads to me not having many friends." He admits, and I feel a bit sorry for him. There's nothing wrong with being a germophobe. If anything he's the person you want to be around. "You're not over bearing if anything I think it's pretty cool you take good care of yourself, and your belongings. At least you got one friend now as well." I flash a bright smile holding up a peace sign. His chuckle fills the air, and I can feel my stomach full of butterflies. He's so beautiful, and so comforting. I need something like this in my life. "You'd be the first to not have an issue with my cleanliness. Anyway, I was thinking before we went to bed do you want to go out? You did win a pretty intense practice game, and since you didn't celebrate with your team I thought we could do something." He offers as I jump up. I would love to go out, but I have nothing to wear. If I had known something like this would happen I would have came prepared. "Sakusa wouldn't that be mean rubbing the victory in your face?" I ask as his eyes grow dark. "Oh that was just a practice game..  I'll beat you next time." His words send chills down my spine. How can he carry himself with so much confidence? "I don't have any clothes to even change into.." I start as he rolls his eyes. "I have some clothes that should fit you. You can keep them afterward since they'll be contaminated." He gets up from the recliner, and heads to his room. Shortly after he comes back with a pair of black skinny jeans, and a red dress shirt with black design on the sleeves. "Is this to your liking? I was hoping it would be okay..." He says placing the clothes on the end table. Who knew he was actually that stylish? Well, if his home is nice I should have just assumed everything he has is nice. "This is perfect! Thank you Sakusa I'll go change now!" I practically jump up while grabbing the clothes. I wonder where we're going to go? Hopefully somewhere fun with a lot of dancing. Oh, I forgot he probably won't go anywhere to crowded. If anyone touches him who knows what would happen. He'd probably spray them with some Lysol.  I chuckle to myself imagining that. It would be so hilarious if he just held the can up and yelled "Back away!" I laugh even harder to myself as I quickly get ready. Walking out the bathroom I practically freeze in my shoes. He's already finished changing as well, but damn he's so beautiful. He's also in black skinny jeans, but he's wearing a white button up with a black vest overtop of it. His hair is slicked back besides the front curls which drapes a little over his forehead. This is the ideal look of a prince, and I can't help but to stare. Damn, it's illegal to look that handsome. "Wow you look amazing..." I mutter as he looks up. "Thanks... Those clothes fit you pretty well are you ready?" He asks as I nod. I have no idea where we're going but anywhere with him looking like this will be a fun time. "Ready as I'll ever be..." I smile as he stands up. "Alright let's go."