𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕤 𝕞𝕖, 𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕤 𝕞𝕖 𝕟𝕠𝕥 {𝕤𝕒𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕚 𝕥𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕠}

🥀He loves me🥀

I've lost all motivation. It's so hard to do the easiest things without my entire body aching. 

It's been getting even harder to hide it. To hide all the signs, the petals, the blood. 

I haven't even been able to tell my best friend about it. And I've tried. I've tried so hard to tell them. But how do you tell your best friend, one of the only people you love the most, that you're dying?

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"Alright class dismissed!"

You packed up your things as you and your friend walked out of class talking to each other, well, more like her talking and you listening.

"Except you Ms. L/n. We need to have a talk."

Your friend looked at you. "I'll wait for you outside, kay?"

You nodded as she turned back around and walked outside the classroom while you shuffled towards the teacher's desk. 

"Did I do something wrong Sensei?"

He looked up at you shaking his head as he leaned forward onto the desk folding his arms. 

"No, no not at all. I just wanted to check in on you. I've noticed you looking awfully pale lately. And, I've also noticed the petals wrapped in tissues in the trashcan. Is there something you want to tell me?"

Your eyes widened. It's true, you looked awful lately. Your skin was noticeably paler and you had dark circles under your eyes from the many times you've woken up in the middle of the night coughing your lungs out and not being able to stop for hours. 

"I-" You were cut off by your teacher.

"It's ok Y/n, you don't have to tell me but if you ever need anything or aren't able to attend class you can always come to me ok?"

You nodded at him grateful that he understood your situation.

"I actually know exactly how feel. I used to have Hanahaki disease as well. I decided to confess and it turned out he shared my feelings!"

Your eyes widened in surprise. "H-he did?"

"Yep! We've been dating for a little while now! We're actually getting married next year!"

You saw his brown eyes sparkle in happiness under his glasses. It made you smile a bit.

"So, don't give up just yet. You never know they might return the feelings!"

"Yea..." Except he really couldn't.

"Well, I'll let you go now Y/n. Just promise you won't give up yet."

You just gave him a sad smile. "Congratulations on your engagement Sensei. I wish both of you a happy life together."

He watched as you walked out of the classroom. He sighed as he shook his head running his hand through his messy brown hair. He looked over at the pile of papers he had to grade on his desk and sighed even louder. Grabbing a paper off the top he started his work, somehow oblivious to the girl crying and yelling at the person that he just talked to outside of his classroom. 

"How could you not tell me?! I'm your best friend! How could you just not tell me that you were dying?!" She had heard your conversation through the door.

"I know! I know I should have told you sooner but I just didn't know how to...I didn't know how you'd react and I-....I didn't want you to be sad."

She sighed as she looked at you with sympathetic tear filled eyes. 

"I'm sorry. I understand and I'm not mad. When are you getting the surgery?"

"....." You looked away avoiding her eyes.

"You are getting the surgery right?"

You looked back at her then turned to the ground.

"No. I don't want to stop loving him. And I know I'm being selfish but I can't imagine a world where I'm not in love with him."

"Why?! Do you really want to die that badly?!"

You turned your head towards her. 

"I never said that. There's a big difference between wanting to die and not being afraid of death."

She sighed. "Fine. I guess I can't really judge your decision since I'd probably do the same thing."

She pulled you into a tight hug which you gladly returned.

"We'll just have to make the most out of the time we have left together."

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You choked as you coughed out two flowers. You were surrounded in blue and yellow petals, and mixed in were a couple whole flowers. You looked down at the two flowers in your hands and chuckled humorlessly when you recognized the flowers.

The blue flower was a Forget-me-not. Forget-me-nots represent true love and giving someone this flower means you truly love and respect this person. It is a testament to your relationships and promises the other person that you will never forget them in your thoughts. Forget-me-nots are a symbol of fidelity and being truthful to someone you love.

The yellow flower was a yellow Tulip. Although most people say yellow Tulips stand for hope and cheerful thoughts, it originally represented jealousy and...hopeless love.

You turned your head to the side as you looked back at your computer playing one of Tendō's tournaments on Youtube. You smiled slightly as the camera zoomed into his face as he taunted his opponents after he blocked one of their attacks. You winced as the choking feeling came back. You couldn't help but to smile more though as he started singing and dancing.

Satori Tendō

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