in too deep | brightwin

together, we stay afloat

epilogue

had it been two months already? three? i laughed at myself as i realized i hadn't been counting but i only nodded at AJ who gave me a petal from the flower his girlfriend got him.

"you ready to enter the outside world, shy bloom?" he asked, his eyes wiggling as if being in the 'outside world' would be exciting and fun. i was hoping too, but right now hoping seemed impossible. there were only accepting facts and the fact was that graduating was only a tinge of hardships into a person's adulthood. there were more to life than just graduating and we should have prepared for it. but i didn't tell that to AJ. i didn't want to ruin his high hopes.

"i told you not to call me shy bloom anymore, didn't i?" i told him as i put the petal he gave inside my graduation cap.

"but calling you win sounds wrong since i've been calling you that for so long. okay, let's try. where are you going after this, win?" he asked, and both of us laughed as we cringed. he was right. it sounded wrong.

"yeah, i'd rather you call me shy bloom. hearing you call me by my name doesn't sound right."

"exactly. but seriously, where you off to after this?"

honestly, i didn't know. it wasn't like i had anything planned. i was just going to my apartment and planned to put my things in a box. i was supposed to move out next week, but i hadn't found any apartment near my supposed to be workplace.

a week before graduation, i received a call from the company where i had given my resume, telling me they'd be expecting me to work for them in a month. i was happy, of course. that seemed like the only good thing i had received after everything that happened.

"i'm not sure, but i'll have it figured out."

"okay, okay. we'll be off to somewhere then," he told me as he wiggled his eyebrows again, twiddling his look to me and her girlfriend. i just laughed as i nodded and looked at them leave, leaving me questioning where the heck am o going now. 

i tightened my hold on my college diploma and went straight to my apartment with nothing in mind. everything else was just blank, a completely blank state.

"congratulations," i heard someone say as i pushed my key in. and i didn't even need to look to know who it was.

but i didn't move. i just stayed there, holding my key and not doing anything as if i were waiting for him to move and do something.

"how are you?" he asked, this time closer.

"fine," i said, briefly facing him with a smile on my face before pushing the door open and leaving it that way. bright took that chance to get inside.

"how are you?" it was my turn to ask, but he didn't answer. instead he gave me a bouquet, a congratulatory remark but i didn't feel like celebrating today. i just want to be held.

"why are you here?" i asked again. bright went in front of me, brushing the side of my hair as it went to my cheek and i tilted my head to where his hands were, missing the warmth of his touch.

how long had it been? it didn't matter. it didn't matter at all.

i took bright by the collar of his shirt and pulled him toward my lips and there i claimed what seemed to be worthy of celebration, our months' long craving for each other's warmth.

bright's hands roamed around my body just thumbing my neck, grabbing my waist for support and pushing me toward his hugely throbbing shaft.

it was as if we didn't need words, or rather words weren't needed at this moment. it was only our touch, the moans coming out of our mouths as we roamed each other's bodies that mattered and nothing else.