twenty one

interests.

not going to speak about
and talk animatedly about
my interests anymore.
seems like all everyone does
is ridicule it.

i can't talk about Taylor Swift
without someone
rolling their eyes.

i can't talk about Bridgerton
without someone
dismissing it.

why do people
love to put
each other down?

i'm not going
to let anyone know
what i'm into anymore.

you won't get
the privilege
to see me
when I am
at my happiest.

you won't get to
see my eyes light up
and my smile grow wide
anymore.

you won't get to
take my happiness
away from me
anymore.

i am simply
playing your game.

i was simply
being vulnerable,
sharing a piece of myself,
sharing something
that i love.

yet,
you went ahead
and ruined it.

now, i will simply
hide away
all my feelings
of joy
and excitement
from you all.

all you will get
is indifference
on my face
reflected
back at you.

-a.l.k.

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Happy new year!

Still pissed off with the world.

Hopefully it will change by the end of this year though.

I'm tired of feeling this way.

Stay safe,
L xx