Ethereal

Revealing

‼️TW: TALK OF SUICIDE‼️

Spencer looks confused, but you know it's not genuine.

"Spencer, don't think I haven't noticed the weird looks and the obvious argument you two had at David and Krystall's house." You say. He looks down and swallows. He looks back up and you take a deep breath knowing he's about to talk.

"When you flatlined, I didn't react in the most civil way." He says.

"I know." You say back. "JJ told me when she came to my hospital room that night."

Spencer looks away ashamed. He sniffles and looks back at you sheepishly.

"Did she tell you that I said I would have killed myself if you died?" He says as his voice breaks. You inhale a little bit.

"No." You say. You can't think of anything else.

"When I told her, she said I had other things to live for." He says. "And I said 'What, like you?'"

He looks down again. He seems like he's about to cry as he glances at you, who's already teary eyed.

"She told me that I had the whole team, and I...." He pauses and swallows again. "I told her they were never there for me. I accused them of ignoring me during my drug addiction and after I was kidnapped and tortured. I told her they pretended to know what I went though in prison, but that they didn't actually care."

You stand there and stare at him. You can't believe he was actually going to take his own life if you died. You can't even bear the thought.

"Afterwards we just ignored each other. Then the other night when she found out we moved in together, she told me I was 'taking things too fast' and that I only did it because I was upset that you almost died." He says. "She said I'd eventually regret it."

You grab his hand and sit down with him. He's trying so hard not to cry right now.

"Spencer, I'm so sorry." You say. You run your fingers through his hair.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I just thought it wouldn't help anything if I brought you into it." He says. "I didn't want to ruin your impression of her."

You scoff. "It's too late for that." You say. Spencer looks up actually confused.

"What do you mean?" He asks. You ponder whether or not to tell him, but since he told you his side it's only fair you talk to him.

"When she came to my hospital room, she didn't only tell me what happened with you." You say. Spencer is looking at you with his eyebrows furrowed. "She um- she accused you of abusing me."

You notice Spencer's expression change. You can't tell what it is though. It looks angry, sad, and confused all at the same time.

"I of course said no and told her it was wrong to accuse you of that." You say. "She left, and after that I avoided her too. But last night she apologized to me while you were getting my keys."

You look down at your hands and start to twiddle your thumbs.

"I accepted, but then she asked me to keep it from you. I said yes but it didn't feel right. That's why I was so awkward during the car ride back." You say. You look back up at Spencer and notice him looking away. He's breathing quickly and he looks back at you.

"She thought I was abusing you?" He asks. You slowly nod and he looks away again. After a second he jumps up and grabs his car keys.

"Where are you going?" You say as you stand up.

"I'm going to see her." He says. His voice is low and cold.

"Spencer, that won't help. It's okay, she just-"

"NO! IT'S NOT OKAY!" He yells. The veins in his forehead are bulging and he steps forward a little bit.

"Ever since I got out of prison, she's been looking over my shoulder for everything. Now that I'm finally happy she ruins it by accusing me of hurting the one thing that matters in my life?" He says. He's still yelling, but not as loudly. "Not only that, but she tells me I'm taking things too fast, and then apologizes to you and asks you to lie to me."

"Spencer she was drunk, I think you-"

"What? You think I'm overreacting?" He asks. He's staring at you intensely but you don't say anything. You're afraid if you say anything more you'll upset him further.

"Well?" He says. He lunges forward a little bit and you take a small step back. He notices and he calms down a little bit, but he's still livid.

"You can try to stop me, but I need to confront her. I won't let one of my oldest friends be one of the reasons I lose you."

He opens the door and slams it shut once he leaves. You stand there unable to move. What just happened? You do not recognize this side of Spencer. You try and think of what to do next. You can't let him act out on JJ. She may deserve a good yelling at but not like this.

You grab your keys and run out the door. You rush to your car and call Penelope. Luckily you exchanged numbers while at David's house.

"This is Penelope Garcia." She says once she answers.

"Penelope, hi! It's y/n."

"Oh, hey sugar! I promise I would've had a better greeting, but I didn't have your number-"

"That's great, but I need a favor." You say.

"Ok, of course. What do you need?"

"What's JJ's address?" You ask. You have your maps app ready as you sit in your car.

"Is everything ok, y/n?" She asks. You love her but you don't have time for this.

"Yeah everything's fine, can I please have the address?"

You type in the address as she gives it to you. You hang up without saying goodbye and speed out of the parking lot. You hope and pray that you'll get to JJ's in time.

Part of you is scared for what might be revealed if you don't.

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First argument whaaaat
But yeah the next chapter is a lot of emotions soo be ready for that :)