i blame you for these sleepless nights
not because you keep me awake
but because everything you ever did to me
always enters my mind
when i feel like this
when i feel like im doing too much
when i feel like im being too much
when i feel like im everything that is nothing
when i feel like every breath i take
is just another
to burden upon the people i love most
and i feel all of that at once
in this moment
and in the next
over the smallest thing
and it makes me hate you even more.
fuck you for making me fucking feel like this.
