how could you make me feel so uncomfortable with you that i became uncomfortable with my own desires? how could you push me so far away from what i truly wanted that i don't even know what the fuck i'm doing anymore?
i don't even know how to accept love the right way, ba. i don't know how to stop my desperate cravings to feel like i'm the only person that crosses somebody's mind. i don't know how to stop myself from hating the world for being so cruel at times. i don't know how to stop myself from feeling these dark, dangerous things.
i need somebody so bad right now. she took herself away from me, as if i ever had her in the first place. you gave me finances and called it love.
i can't feel anything good right now. i'm so trapped in this trance, and all i want is to be craved.
how the fuck could you make me feel so vulnerable?
