Balancing Act (Obi-Wan Kenobi x Reader)

🪐Prologue🪐

"Good and evil is not black and white but a thousand shades of grey"

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Prologue

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There is no emotion, there is peace

There is no ignorance, there is knowledge,

There is no passion, there is serenity

There is no chaos, there is harmony

There is no death, there is The Force

As a youngling, the Jedi Code was drilled into your head. Before you could form full sentences, you knew the Code. Unlike your crèchemates, you always had a question to ask about it. People die and become one with the Force, how does that mean no death? Isn't compassion an emotion? Without passion, how can one pursue what they love?

The questions were endearing for a short while before they became concerning to your crèchmaster, and you quickly learned to keep queries like that to yourself — seeking answers on your own merit and time.

More than anything you wanted to be a Jedi, and you worked hard to be a good one- but the word Jedi didn't feel right. Every time it was uttered the Force whispered to you that something was missing, some... descriptor.

It was during one of your independent studies that you came across a story seemingly forgotten in the back archives. The way it was written nearly came off as children's tales. But they were too dark, too serious to be something the crèchmasters would tell you and your crèchmates at night.

It told stories of the Sith Wars, of the Sith's dark powers and aptitude in the addictive Dark Side of the Force. But beyond the Sith Wars and battles between the Light and Dark, was the Gray.

The term Gray Jedi had two meanings. First, it was used by Jedi and Sith to describe Force-users who walked the line between the light and dark sides of the Force without surrendering to the dark side, and second, it described Jedi who distanced themselves from the Jedi High Council and operated outside the strictures of the Jedi Code. However, those who were considered to be true Gray Jedi met both qualifications and did not belong to any particular Force tradition.

There were Gray Jedi who fought for the Light and Gray Jedi who fought for the Sith, but in the end, they were Gray because they trusted the Force above all else and explored all of its uses- even if that meant using Dark Side techniques.

"(Y/n)."

Jumping, you clutched the datapad close to your chest and turned to face your closest friend with a smile. You felt like you'd just been caught doing something forbidden, but really you were just reading. Just reading.

"Hey, Obi-Wan. Do you need something?"

"Bant, Garen, Siri, and Quin are all either doing coursework or meditating."

"Quinlan Voss is meditating?"

"I think it was an excuse to go do something against the rules, but I didn't ask any further," Obi-Wan shrugged, sitting next to you, "What are you reading?"

"A book on the Sith Wars. I found it in the back and thought it was interesting," you shrugged, attempting to be casual, "I think I might check it out, actually. I didn't get very far."

"Well, after you check out, do you want to go to the West Gardens with me?" Obi-Wan asked, with a small tilt of his head.

"Sure! Just give me a second to speak to Master Nu about taking this and I'll be ready."