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boris imagine!
i tossed & turned in bed as i let out another sigh. it had been two whole hours.
i stopped crying about thirty minutes ago, the hurtful things boris said to me not leaving my mind.
of course i said things back, but not as near as mean as what boris said to me.
"fucking slut"
"i don't fucking care anymore"
"all you do it bitch & complain"
"leave me alone"
"i'm going to potters, don't try to contact me"
the worst part is that i was forced to stay in his room because my parents are out of town & they allowed me to stay with my boyfriend.
he might as well be my ex boyfriend.
i found myself starting to sob again. i was just trying to help, i should've known how stressed he's been with school & the situation he has here.
i didn't know he could say such rude things.
i tried to console myself, wrapping my arms around my body.
boris' pillow was wet because of my tears.
i'm a fucking mess.
i thought about breaking up with boris, but then i'd have nowhere to go. theo would probably take me in, but boris would be there too since they're best friends.
i know that he's not perfect, but i don't know how i could forgive him for saying those things to me.
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i still couldn't get any sleep, i looked off to the digital clock by boris' bed.
4:15AM
fuck, i've been up all night. crying. this is fucking pathetic, i'm crying over a scrawny russian boy.
if only he knew the impact his words left.
i heard the door downstairs shut, i tried to silence my crying. it could be his dad.
the footsteps led up to his room, so i pretended i was asleep.
i relaxed once i heard boris sigh, he glanced over at my figure with my back turn to him.
he frowned & got undressed.
he quietly looked for a shirt & some sweats.
once he changed back into his lazy clothes, he carefully climbed into bed & wrapped his arms around me.
he felt how wet his pillow was & immediately felt a lump in his throat.
he remembered all the things he said to me & felt horrible.
the whole time he was at theo's he tried to forget the horrible words the spewed out of his mouth & into my mind.
he knew i was bad with yelling & it was easy to hurt my feelings, especially if you were important to me.
he brought his hand down & rubbed my side soothingly, "i'm sorry детка."
he pressed a kiss to my shoulder.
i was still mad that he left me here to cry for so long, so i didn't give in yet.
he sighed again before speaking, "я не должен был быть таким злым."
boris taught me russian the first month we started dating. sometimes he still has to teach me because it's a whole language.
i sighed & turned around to face him, "then why were you?" i whimpered.
he had this look of sorrow on his face, seeing me upset made him upset.
"because i am a fucking тупица."
"mhm." i hummed.
"i didn't mean anything i said to you. it was out of anger, you are not slut. you are my angel."
he cupped my wet cheek & brought his lips to mine. i hesitated for a second before kissing back.
he pulled away first, "i know you were jus trying to look after me. i did not handle the situation well."
i grabbed his hand & started playing with his fingers.
"what you said really hurt me emotionally. i know i can be really sensitive, i just can't help it. i've tried." i felt my eyes water again.
boris immediately pulled me to him, shushing me. "shh милая, you are not sensitive. if you are hurt from it, it hurts you. what i said crossed the line & i am sorry."
i continued to cry into his shoulder, "i shouldn't have said what i said either." i tried to say but it came out muffled.
"all is fine, buttercup." he shushed me again,
"i'll do better for you, i promise. you mean so much to me."
i breathed in his scent & felt myself falling asleep, his sweet words now replacing the mean ones he spat at me just hours ago.
"i love you a lot, boris."
"i love you more."
he pulled me against him even tighter, if possible. we fell asleep like that. our relationship may not be perfect, but i wouldn't wanna be with anyone else.
детка - baby.
я не должен был быть таким злым - i shouldn't have been so mean.
тупица - dumbass.
милая - sweetheart.
794 wc, this one was kinda short.
