Deception

the black pain in my ass widow

I don't even know where i'm going but I wind up at a park a park that feels familiar to familiar. I sit on the swing and realize I never learned how to swing by myself and it hit me like a bus. pepper used to take me here everyday after school I immediately jumped up and started to jog emotions are the deadliest weapon one can use sharper then steal it will slice sight trough you till you are a shell of what you once were. a way that breaks you more then the red room could ever wish to but maybe my thoughts prove this wrong maybe the red room did break me. no I mentally scold myself the only thing that will be Broken is madame b's bones. the only reason I need to go back next year is for retribution revenge whatever you want to call it I need it it might only push me farther under but I don't care anymore as soon as I do that I drop off the grid run everyone will be hunting me ready to take my head. I can take them.

I start to find myself wondering the roads when I do a double take seeing i'm back at avengers towers none the less head in and try to get to my room Natasha stops me the moment she saw me 

"hey max I was wondering if you want to go shopping today?"

"umm I don't know" I say 

"oh come one we can bond over our mutual dislike of your father" she says with a smirk 

I need these people to not think me suspicious so besides my judgment I agree and walk past her. what have I done. I have to go shopping . with the black widow . two things I hate. I don't per say hate Natasha as a person but I hate the black widow she is the golden standard the person who I have been beat into becoming the person who failed to destroy the red room leaving me there. the person who's name haunts my dreams. the name I have taken the elusive "black widow" 

I know I haven't been uploading and this is a short chapter but its midnight and I need sleep I'll try to upload more and if you have any ideas for what to happen next or anything drop a comment and if you like this chapter please vote.