Todoroki Angst One-Shots | Torment

6 | Torn Apart - Split Personality Todoroki

A/N:
keep in mind that this is just a fictional story, so there are some things in here that are intentionally not the most realistic—more symbolic than realistic.

Warnings:
Dissociative identity disorder/multiple personality disorder, trauma, self-harm, suicide attempt(s). This story is not intended to promote or encourage these actions/behaviors.

[Third-Person]
Shoto Todoroki

Shoto Todoroki was far from someone who would be considered "normal" ever since he had been born. Was it the split, dual-colored hair? No. The heterochromia that further divided him into two halves? Maybe. Possessing two Quirks that were respectively activated on one half of his body or the other? Indeed—possessing more than one Quirk seldom occurred. Yet, that wasn't what made Shoto so different from the others by the time he had become a teenager. Over time, Shoto gradually developed a split personality—otherwise known as dissociative identity disorder.

As a child, Shoto would occasionally witness his eldest brother Touya on the verge of tears, but as Endeavor began his intense training for Shoto, the reported accident involving Touya soon emerged, and Touya was presumably deceased. Sure, Shoto was saddened by what became the accepted death of his brother, but to fill in the tear in the picture that Touya's death had created, Shoto imagined as though Touya was still around. Yet, in Shoto's fantasy world where Touya was alive, the eldest child of the Todoroki family was constantly comforting Natsuo.

Speaking of Natsuo... The second youngest of the Todoroki family was never the same after Touya's disappearance. Vehement detestation for Endeavor boiled within Natsuo. By Natsuo's thoughts, Endeavor had been the cause of Touya's disappearance, and by Natsuo's experience, he abhorred how harshly Endeavor trained Shoto to become a "masterpiece" capable of surpassing All Might. The second youngest Todoroki had seen Shoto with the fear of failure, the fear of being a disappointment, the fear of becoming someone like the one who instilled fear into him, the fear of being broken from both the inside and the outside—many manifestations of fear were present—in his heterochromatic eyes as he was forcibly pushed to shatter his humanly limits through daily training sessions. He witnessed as his youngest brother would ask their mother why their family never seemed to be a family—why they couldn't all be happy as a family. Natsuo had seen Shoto pretending as though he was talking to someone a myriad of times, but he thought nothing of it—the habit wasn't uncommon.

Fuyumi, the second eldest of the Todoroki children, developed quite the motherly side to her throughout Shoto's childhood. She would cook, clean, tend to Shoto's wounds, and overall, she became a pivotal hinge that the Todoroki family was unknowingly fastened to to prevent itself from completely falling apart. For a few years, Fuyumi would always tuck Shoto into his futon, and she usually told tales of a happy family of six—idyllic tales of their own family had been told, but Shoto had been too young to make the connection—but little did she know that these ideations would become the ardent flames of Shoto's vast imagination.

Rei, the wife of Endeavor and mother of the Todoroki children, was the first person that Shoto would run to when tears ceaselessly ran down his cheeks. All she could do without jeopardizing her own safety while her husband trained her youngest son to the point where Shoto was incapacitated on the floor with his own vomit from overexertion, and in tears of physical and emotional torment, was simply attempt to console her son. Endeavor never hesitated to become physical with Rei if she attempted to interfere with Shoto's training, and due to this, Shoto would often sob to his mother about how much he didn't want to become someone who would hurt her like Endeavor would. Yet, as time progressed, Rei could only see Enji Todoroki—Endeavor—in Shoto's left half that resembled her husband, and she openly proclaimed that she hated what she saw—it was "unbearable" to her. Thus, despite how much Rei loved Shoto, how she told him that he didn't have to be a prisoner of his blood and could still become a Hero, and how she was always there for him, Rei attempted to dispose of Shoto's left half. Able to withstand seeing Endeavor in Shoto's left half no more, Rei poured boiling water from a kettle onto Shoto's face; immediately regretting her decision, she activated her ice Quirk as an impetuous response to her own regrettable, impulsive action. From this, Shoto's burn over the left half of his face surfaced, but what also surfaced was the fulcrum of Shoto's later development of multiple personalities.