Heart Strings - DreamNotFound

[26] A final goodbye

"hello stream!" george greeted the camera facing him
the chat was confused as to where he was and why it was so scuffed.

"so uh, this might be a bit of a sad start but it has to be done, just after it's discussed try keep the chat as positive as possible please?" george said anxiously rubbing his neck with his hand

that chat erupted thinking it'd be DNF confirmation, or something insane like that, what was coming nobody expected

George looked to alex who gave him the go ahead nod, he turned the camera around to face alex

it wasn't a nice sight, the boy was hooked up to so many wires and tubes, he looked sickly with bags forming beneath his eyes from the nights he'd struggled to sleep in pain, the patches on his hair were visible.

"hey stream" alex coughed a bit, karl gave him a cup of water, alex's condition was deteriorating

george handed the phone to alex and went to stand with dream, dream had agreed to show his face later in the stream as alex didn't want the whole chat focusing solely on the fact he was dying.

"so uh, i'm sorry this isn't what anyone wanted or expected" alex weakly smiled, he was visibly anxious

the chat asked what was wrong and if he was okay

"putting it simply, i'm dying, this is probably going to be the last ever stream i do" alex teared up
the chat were conflicted, half thinking he was joking the other half in a state of shock and sadness
"i've suffered with brain tumours for the past 3 years, this is the worst it's been and it's malignant now. I don't have long but i wanted to atleast have one last stream surrounded by the people who made this easier to cope with and atleast saying a thankful goodbye to you all"

the viewers began going up, now some of their friends that alex hadn't told this to had joined and seen and began blowing up members of the feral boys phone

"i know some of my friends are watching this, i'm sorry i didn't tell you, i didn't plan to tell anyone as a matter of fact besides karl. but the. one thing lead to another, a nasty seizure and now i'm spending my last weeks chained up in a hospital bed" alex laughed trying to make a joke, it was clear he was about to cry

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"well uh, of course being stuck in a hospital in a different country knowing i won't ever be able to go home or say goodbye to my mom properly or see tiger again but death, i'm not really scared of that, it's sort of beautiful in a way? you guys will have plenty to remember me by" alex smiled

karl and sapnap had began crying

"come here you idiots" alex shook his head gesturing for karl and sapnap to come over, he handed the phone to george who continued streaming alex and the boys

Karl, quackity and sapnap cuddled and they all began to cry

it was an upsetting sight, george questioned if it was even morally correct to display this on the internet, yet it was alex's wishes and you can hardly say no to a dying man

dream sniffled and cuddled george from behind, the camera still facing alex

alex addressed a few more things, said some hellos to donos like he normally would, trying to keep a normal tone.

eventually they showed dreams face and the chat erupted about that the stream went on for around four hours before deciding to end it. as soon as george hit end stream and he went to get snacks people had requested, alex began uncontrollably crying
karl rushed to his side holding him tight
"it's okay alex, it's going to be okay" he whispered as he held the sobbing younger
"i'm just in so much pain i want it to stop" alex sobbed out

everyone was slightly shocked by this, alex had never spoken properly about the pain he was in. he so often brushed it off not wanting to worry or upset anyone but it was clear he was in agony. some nights karl and nick woke up on the hospital chairs hearing alex sobbing and crying in pain

"we'll see if we can get the doctors to up your morphine okay love?" sapnap forced a weak smile heading to the nurses station to ask

karl followed sapnap, george was getting stuff from the cafe located in the hospital

"dream" alex choked out
"yes?" dream looked up
"look after george, he really needs you. you have the chance to care for him and make sure he never feels hurt. i cant do that with karl and sapnap with the way i am, all i'm doing is causing them hurt but you and george, you have hope"
"alex... that's not true, they love you that's why they're hurt"
"i know, just be there for george as much as possible okay" alex sniffles

the nurse came in
"so i hear you've been having some pain alexis"
the nurse and alex began to discuss things, she eventually dosed him on two drugs, one made him super drowsy so he was in and out of sleep for hours.