Heart Strings - DreamNotFound

[29] Moving on

It'd now been a month or so since alex passed, the funeral was today

things had changed.

Karl decided on completely cutting himself away from social media, everytime he opened an app like twitter he couldn't bare to see photos or clips of him and alex circulating, especially the ones from the first time they'd met. Karl found himself falling asleep to that stream every night. Karl had also become extremely clingy, he was afraid to leave sapnap alone for too long and wouldn't let him go anywhere alone, this had a large affect on their relationship causing them to have to see counsellors to help keep their relationship stable

Sapnap coped surprisingly well, some nights he would break down when it felt too much. Whenever he missed alex he'd play the song that reminded him of a happier time

- flashback-

"pleaseeee play it alexxxx" karl begged.
the three were on a discord call, all with their mans on. Alex was tuning his guitar
"only if you two sing with me"
"but you're the better one we suck" karl complained
"speak for yourself karl, i'm practically beyoncé"
"you wish, more like trina vega in victorious"
"wow rude"
alex shook his head and gently began strumming
"hey there delilah what's it like in new york city" he began, around the second verse the other two boys joined in singing together pouring in emotions in an  essence they felt strong relation to the song as distance kept them awfully far apart
upon finishing the three giggled a deep blush covering each of their unique faces
"i'm so glad i recorded that whole thing" sapnap giggled to himself
"you did what-" karl's face dropped
"if you post that anywhere karlity it's gonna become real"
"karlnapity just sounds better you wouldn't dare"
"i wouldn't push it sap"

-
Sapnap smiled as he recalled one of the most blissful moments he'd ever experienced.

George had dealt with it terribly at first, nightmares plagued him. He was thankful he had dream to comfort him and cuddle him to remind him it was okay. Quackity had actually helped georges philophobia a massive amount, he always gave the best advice and always had the wisest way with words outside of his online persona.

Dream had always been one to deal with loss well, after speaking to alex and alex sharing how he felt dream knew that alex wasn't in pain anymore, he knew that he'd be happy in whatever paradise he was in. paradise .
Paradise by cold play was the song he'd asked to be played at his funeral, he said he would've preferred an acoustic version yet any would be fine.

(a/n : feel free to listen to the song during this chapter)

the four stood , paradise by coldplay began playing.
it was mid march, it was an uneasy balance between cold and warm.
a tuesday to be exact.

The grave was covered now, the four boys were all dressed their smartest.
"what do you think he's up to right now" sapnap asked wiping a finger over the headstone
"probably flirting with jesus or obama" george said
"obama's not dead george-"
"oh yeah" the four giggled
"this is what he would've wanted, us to be laughing" karl said wiping a loose tear

"he had so much more to give to this world- he would've been the best darn lawyer anyone would've seen" sapnap beamed
"he really would've"
"want to do something really fucking cursed and that will probably get us cancelled" dream snickered
"oh god what are you thinking clay" sapnap looked up
"final 5/5 feral boys content?" dream pulled a face raising his eyebrows
"oh my god twitter will kill us" george laughed
"alex would've found it funny though." karl agreed

they propped the phone up, they placed the beanie on top of the headstone and all posed as the timer counted down and eventually taking a photo

Sapnap decided to be the one uploading it

@Sapnap
5/5 feral boys content?
one of us is literally dead and we're still
giving you more content than sbi...
* he attached the image of the four boys and the grave, dream was smiling, an arm around george and they stood on the left putting up peace signs, on the right was karl on sapnaps back whom was giving him a piggy back and in the middle was alex's grave his classic LAFD beanie placed gently on top of it. Cornflowers and a bag of doritos lay on the freshly placed dirt*

the fans were heart broken when hearing alex had passed away, none of them knew how to react.
a fair share of sad video edits, compilations and many other content creators had reached out sharing their condolences online.
As much as they missed him, most of them understood he was in a lot of pain.

Most of quackitys vods on his channel were gone, leaving only the most recent ones. George kept his promise and uploaded the two VODS of the cooking stream and the hospital stream to youtube, as alex had requested.

-
The four were now in separate cars on their way home, George and Dream in one car with dream driving whilst sapnap was driving with karl, sapnap  put a song that he'd listened to a lot after alex passed 'when she loved me, by sarah mclachlan'

when somebody loved me, everything was beautiful

he drove holding back tears, karl placed a reassuring hand on sapnaps leg

every hour we spent together lives within my heart

the drive felt longer than usual

and when she was sad; i was there to dry her tears

sapnap pulled over, he knew it was best when in this condition.
he put his head on the steering wheel and began to cry, karl rubbed his back giving him kisses on his hand every so often

and when she was happy, so was i
when she loved me

and i knew that
she loved me