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Chapter 53

ROMAN

I am not a desperate man.

But she makes me desperate. I am desperate for her attention. That desperate that I asked Helena for help.

She has taken my request a little too seriously. Now, she loves playing my relationship coach with a the clipboard in her hands and the fake glasses.

"You look like that teacher from Pornhub, you know?" I ask her with a chuckle.

She hits me with the clipboard on my bicep, making me hiss. "At least I am not the desperate one —watching porn. It must be lonely at nights, huh?"

"Right, otherwise I wouldn't ask you for advice," I mutter, rubbing my arm. "What shall I do?"

"Do you have the flowers?" she asks, adjusting her glasses. Nodding my head, I show her the flowers I bought. It's a bunch of roses.

She makes a tick next to her notes, which are clipped on the board she's holding. "And the chocolate?"

"Yes." I bought a big box of pralines. She makes another tick next to her notes.

"And what will you do when she complains?" she arches her brow. "Agree with her and apologize," I tell her what she has told me.

"All right, you are well-trained," she smiles at me proudly. "Now go and get your girl for a date!" She pushes me towards the backyard.

With roses and chocolate, I nervously approach her. I can't believe how nervous I am because of a woman.

But then she isn't any woman. She is the woman I love. She is the woman who sacrifices her status to save me. She is the woman who trusted me with her everything.

And I am the idiot who broke her.

However, I am ready to beg for her forgiveness. I just hope Helena's advice works and she accepts me back.

Her feet are in the pool, her dress bunched up. I clear my throat when I am standing behind her — not wanting to startle her. She is very jumpy since I got her back.

"Roman," she looks up, before getting up to her feet.

"I want to apologize for fucking you without a rubber, it wasn't right, I acted selfish, I am sorry, can you forgive me?" I ask her, giving her the flowers and chocolate.

"You bought me chocolate and flowers?" she asks surprised, but a beautiful smile forms on her sweet lips.

"I hope you like them," I mutter with a small smile.

"No one ever buys me flowers and chocolate before, thank you," she mutters with a blush.

"Am I forgiven?" I cock my head.

"I forgive you, I ... I am also sorry for trying to hide my pregnancy from you, it wasn't right from me either," she apologizes too and I am surprised how well we can communicate.

I am a proud man but I will apologize first every fight if it means the fight between us ends sooner.

"I can't even be mad at you for hiding your pregnancy from me, I love you too much for it, even if you hate me."

"You really love me?" she asks with a blush. "More than my life," I tell and kiss her hand.

"I don't hate you Roman," she sighs, looking down,
"I have never hated you, I ... am just scared of you because you hurt me."

"I am sorry." I apologize again.

"I know you are, I have seen you struggling for weeks to regain my trust and make me forgive you. And I forgive you, and I still love you," she mutters.