After chris left I was laying here crying I was also hungover and had a bad headache I didn't feel like doing anything "I'm sorry" that what kept going through my head I couldn't stop thinking of that
I hear footsteps coming up the hallway
"Chris?" I said
It was Jimmy he walks in and sits on my bed
"So...how are you?" Jimmy asks
"Hungover....heartbroken...hungry"
I say
Jimmy laughs at me and grabs my hand and holds it
I pull my hand away to sit up
I started to take off my shirt because it was getting hot
"Damnn....chris left thos?" He said
"How do you know it was chris?" I say
He got closer to me and said "he told me"
I just say"oh"
Jimmy started to get more close
"You know....I can give you more" jimmy said while smiling at
me he started to placed his lips on my shoulder
I push him off and said "no no no i dont want this....can you please leave just go"
"Sorry sorry I went to far...yea il go.."
He says
He walks out my room and out my house I lay back down and fall asleep
I wake up at about 2am I couldn't go back to sleep so I started thinking
Why does no one love...why do they always have to leave..
They wouldn't care..if i- if...if I kill myself....
I get up and go to the bathroom
I look in the mirror and I see all the hickeys that Chris left...I wanted him to give me more....this made me feel good it made me happy...
I turn around and turn on the shower
To take a shower I look in the mirror and started to feel myself
I start to play some music
And sit in the shower I loved the way it felt
I liked the warm water hitting my body what if i... what if I took a video?
After I was done whit that I layed in the shower it felt so good
I didn't want to leave this spot because I got comfortable but after a while I started getting sick I walk out the shower and start to throw up
After that i was just sitting on the floor wishing that chris was here to hold me...
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