I started coming back in videos..
All I could think of yesterday
The last kiss I had with chris
Jimmy told us we where doing a gaming video I sit in my chair then karl comes in the room
"Hey chan" he says
I look at him and smile I say "hi"
I turn on my camera and join the discord
Jimmy wanted us to play gta so we did
I didn't want to be all sad so I pretend to he happy
I failed the challenge so I lay back in my chair
My pull my shirt down a little then forgetting about the hickeys
After that I go tell the guys I'm getting some food
I get in the car and start driving to taco bell I ordered the food and started to drive back but I needed to go to the store first I go inside and walk around I bought the thing I needed and started to drive back to the warehouse
I go and give the guys food when I was going to Chris he just didn't want to make eye contact....witch made me feel sad but I still pretended ba happy
When I handed him the food I hug him and whispered "its ok...dont feel like you did something wrong...I love you" then I walk away
I go to mine and Karl's room and give him the food and I started eating while watching him play after they where done I was getting ready to leave when I feel karl hug me
"Im..I'm sorry that i hurt you...i love you...but just...I dont want a relationship...ok I'm sorry" he said
I hug him and I say "its ok...no one likes me anyways" I push him off and get in my car and start to drive home
When I got home I layed down and started going through Instagram it was weird because I had something on my story I didn't post anything
I click on it and it was the video I took in the in the shower I started freak out and I saw a couple of hundred people saw I quickly delete it I hope none of the guys saw...
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