"FUCK". i screamed as bokuto let his cum pour into me from behind.
my own orgasm dripping out of me as he kept thrusting.
his hard strokes becoming weaker until all that was left was the sound of us panting.
"damn". he whispered as he pulled out and tapped his dick on my back a few times.
i let out shaky breaths as i fell onto the bed exhausted. my hair was messy again.
bokuto fell beside me, catching his breath.
the room was silent for a while.
i don't think that was a mistake.
i don't feel bad about it... yet.
"you can put my things back on, they're yours". was the first thing he said.
"okay". i responded. my mouth was so dry.
"i should actually probably go find my friend". i said trying to leave now that things were weird again.
"yeah- uh yeah". he said sitting up and looking at the clock on his bedside table.
it was 12:05
we had been up here for about 50 minutes now, and i'm sure someone was looking for me.
"okay- i'll see you around". i said walking out the door.
"kay". he said as i closed it.
ugh- i wish i didn't get all weird at the end.
and i wish he would actually say something.
my legs were wobbling, and i was getting a headache.
i kind of just wanted to go to sleep now.
where's kiyo?
i walked down the stairs, and the loud music was still going. people were still throwing back drinks, and i was the only one wearing a big t-shirt and boxers, that's for sure.
i walked through the big crowds, and for some reason i was getting irritated by the yelling and the overwhelming space.
i don't know why i was suddenly upset.
but i couldn't help it.
i walked closer to the entrance, and in the living room i spotted daichi and suga on the couch with lev, who had kiyo next to him.
on the other couch was kuroo sitting by himself with a drink in his hand, and on the other side of the couch was a sleeping hinata.
i walked over and saw the looks i got.
especially from kiyo.
i sat down between kuroo and hinata, and kuroo took a sip of his drink.
"hey". i smiled at kiyo.
she smiled back, but it was kind of a half smile.
"what are you guys doing"? i asked her.
she looked at lev and then over at daichi.
"nothing- just hanging out".
i know i just got over here, and they were probably confused about my outfit change.
but it was a little quiet, and i felt like i was interrupting.
i pulled on the collar of the shirt.
"if you're wondering why i'm in these clothes, it's because bokuto decided to throw me in the pool". i said laughing.
no one else laughed and it made my stomach drop.
"yeah we heard about some girl screaming because she got tossed in and figured that was you". daichi said looking at me.
"are you having fun"? i asked kiyomi.
she shrugged. "i guess, i mean it would have been better if you didn't leave me alone down here". she said.
oh- that's what it is.
is she hurt that i walked away with tanaka?
or... that i never came back to check on her.
i guess that was pretty shit of me.
i know she doesn't even like parties like this.
"yeah, i'm sorry for not coming down for a long time". i apologized.
"you were upstairs"? suga asked.
"yeah why"? i asked back.
he shook his head.
"nothing- it's just bedrooms up there so".
oh- i guess he's been here before.
"well after the pool bokuto gave me these and um- helped me wash my hair". my voice got soft and i looked down.
"yeah he's known for throwing people in". suga smiled. atleast he was still friendly.
"yeah". i said clearing my throat.
kuroo took another sip of his drink.
"what's that"? i asked turning to him.
he finished drinking before even looking at me.
"just some juice or something". he said looking in the cup.
"can i have some"? i asked.
"uh-" he said pulling the cup back a little.
"come on, i really want some". i laughed jokingly trying to grab it.
"look- if you want some then go get some, not trying to be rude but i don't trust your mouth on my cup". he said upset.
now my heart was beating fast and my stomach was filled with the worst kind of butterflies. the ones you get when people team up against you.
"huh"? i asked looking at everyone else.
the only person that was smiling at me sort of- was suga.
"oh". i said.
i put my hands on my lap and scrunched the shirt with my fingers.
this was um- embarrassing.. and shocking.
and i think i'm having a little anxiety attack right now.
"i'll get some for myself.. yeah". i nearly whispered.
i could feel my face getting red and hot- and my vision was getting blurry.
the tears were forming, and i looked up at kiyo.
she leaned back on the couch and then looked away.
"okay- yeah, i see the room- the kitchen over there, so i'll go get a cup". i said trying to smile.
i knew my tears were becoming visible so i quickly stood up.
my legs felt stiff as i walked away.
not knowing what to do with my arms, i crossed them walking through the crowds.
my stomach was getting tight.
and my legs were heavy.
my heart was racing.
are they all mad at me?
do they know what i did?
i walked down a hall, and found the nearest restroom going inside and locking the door.
oaktree- you might think i'm being dramatic.
but i actually had a break down after writing this chapter.
it 2 am and i'm emotional sorry.
um- i've been in this situation so many times where you feel like you're the odd one out, and so secluded.
it's so awful and i'd never make someone feel that way on purpose.
idk why, just writing this chapter so detailed.
made me cry. and i couldn't bring myself to post it for a few more minutes.
sorry it would have been up sooner. i just needed to gather myself.
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