falling

chapter 1

Kara Danvers knew from the moment they met that she was in love with Lena Luthor. She knew that Lena Luthor had wiggled her way into Kara's heart. A heart she swore would not be given away after being broken by someone else. Kara was so in love with Lena, but decided to keep it to herself. 

It all started when Jack and Lena got back together. He was only supposed to be in town for a few days, but then days turned into weeks and the weeks turned into a month. He'd been there for a whole month, and almost everyday was spent with Lena. Kara tried to avoid him, whenever Lena would invite her out to lunch if Kara showed up and Jack was there she immediately left and texted Lena some excuse. She knew it wasn't right but she couldn't fight the feeling that bubbled up in her stomach every time she saw Jack and Lena together. 

Lena asked her, no pleaded with Kara to come to dinner with her and Jack, how could Kara say no when the one she loved was so intent on her coming, reluctantly Kara agreed to go. After walking to the table with Jack and Lena she sat down across from Lena, Jack sitting on the side. Jack reached across the table and kissed Lena, Kara suddenly felt her airways constrict and had the urge to throw up. Running to the bathroom and into the stall, she hunched over and started to vomit. Coughing  she noticed flowers were mixed in with her vomit, she flushes the toilet and goes to wash her hands, someone entered the restroom, Lena. 

"Kara, are you ok?" Lena asked, "I saw you run in here." 

"I'm fine." Kara lied, at least Jack wasn't anywhere near her so she didn't feel sick again. 

"You don't look fine." Lena said worriedly, she placed her hand on Kara's forehead, "and your burning up."

"I'm okay, Lena, I promise." Kara smiled, obviously lying. 

"Well in that case, would you please come back to the table and join Jack and I?" Lena said. Jack and I, Jack and I, Jack and I, Jack and I. The words swirled around in Kara's mind like a pool of sadness and pain. 

Kara felt sick again and had the urge to run, the urge to run away and cry. Unaware of what was going on in the world outside her mind, through blurred eyes she saw Lena's mouth moving, her emerald eyes filled with fear and concern. 

"Kara?!" Lena shouted. Kara was crying, hyperventilating, and dry heaving. "Kara, darling, what's the matter, deep breaths darling, deep breaths."

Kara shook her head, tears streaking down her face falling into her hands, and Lena thought that she was going to start crying because of how heart wrenching it is to witness her best friend having an emotional breakdown. "I-I ca-can't!" Kara choked. 

"Breathe, Kara, please, for me." Lena asked trying to guide Kara in her breathing. 

Kara nodded, she closed her eyes and tried to control her breathing. Her ears listened to Lena's heartbeat. Her crying started to slow down and her breathing pace started to regulate itself. "L-Lena?"

Lena looked at her intensely, tears glistened in her eyes, "Kara, what happened?"

"I don't know." Kara choked out, "I'm scared, Lena."

"Darling, there's no reason to be afraid, but I am a bit worried. Have you ever had a panic like this before?" Lena asked, concerned.

Kara shook her head, "Nothing like this. I can't explain what happened. But I'm afraid I can't join you and Jack for dinner." she said.

"Oh, I understand." Lena said softly, "You go home and rest up, okay?"

Kara nodded and left the bathroom before flying off. Once she got to her apartment, she crawled into bed, feeling worse than usual. She curled up and found herself crying herself to sleep.

The next morning, there was a knock on her door. She threw on her robe and used her x-ray vision to see who was coming to see her at 8:30 in the morning. There stood, Jack and Lena. Kara opened the door to see the happy couple, but before she could greet them, she had the urge to throw up again. She ran to the bathroom and found herself throwing up and coughing up flowers again into the toilet. plumerias, Lena's favorite . There was a knock on the bathroom door.

"Kara, are you okay?" Said a concerned voice. It was Lena.

Kara started to throw up again, shakily, she looked at the flowers spewed up in the toilet. "What the hell is wrong with me?" she whispered to herself with a shaky voice. She cleared her throat. "L-Lena?"

"I'm sorry we barged in your apartment darling, I just got worried. Are you alright in there?" She asked.

"I-I'm fine," Kara lied. "Just not feeling so well."

"Oh, are you sick?" Lena asked, her tone shifted, mainly because Jack doesn't know their secret. "Kara?"

"I'm okay Lena, really." She lied, "Nows just not a good time to hang out. Is that okay?"

"Sure, of course." Lena sounded a bit disappointed. She missed Kara . A lot. Kara heard Lena whisper something into Jack's ear and heard the two of them exit her apartment. Shaking, she grabs her phone from her robe and calls up Alex. The only person she trusts enough.

"Hello, Kara?" Alex said once she answered the phone.

Kara tried to contain herself, but she just couldn't. "Al-Alex?" she said as quietly as a mouse while crying.

"Kara? What's wrong?" Alex asked, now concerned.

"Something-Something's happening to me. I don't-I don't know what it is." Kara said. "Alex, I'm scared."

"I'm on my way." Was all Alex said before the line clicked off. A few moments later, Kara's door opened and Alex came in. "Kara?"

"In here!" Kara called weakly. Alex rushed to the bathroom and opened the door to find Kara curled up in the fetal position. "Hi."

Alex got down to her knees. "Kara, what's the matter?" She peered next to her sister and noticed the flowers and petals in the toilet, "Oh my gosh.."

"What?" Kara asked. Alex was quiet. "Alex, what is it?"

"Those..in the toilet.." Alex said softly, "You're coughing up flowers?"

Kara nodded weakly, "Yeah, it..it started yesterday."

"Yesterday!? Why didn't you tell me sooner!" Alex asked.

"I-I didn't think anything of it!" Kara replied.

"Kara, coughing up flowers isn't normal!" Alex retorted.

"I know..just please, can you and your science obsessed brain help me figure this out?" Kara asked.

Alex nodded, "I'll figure something out. When does it happen?"

"When I'm around Lena.." Kara said softly. "Or Lena and Jack."

"What?" Alex asked.

"When I'm around Lena, or Lena and Jack." Kara replied.

"For now, I need you to stay away from them." Alex said.

"What? but Alex, Lena's my best friend!" Kara argued.

"And as your sister, I'm telling you that you need to stay away from her for the time being. Just until I can figure out what's happening. Okay?" Alex said softly.

Kara nodded, tears spilling. "I don't like this, but, fine ."