Falling for You

What is Right

Song - Love on the brain by Rihanna

The next few days I really felt the weight of my decisions. I dreaded telling my friends but I would have to do it eventually so I figured get it over and done with. I invited them round to my apartment and handed each one a cup of tea.

"Why're we all here y/n?" Kerr asked.
"I mean over the phone you said it was an emergency so I'm freaking out a little now."

"Oh my god are you pregnant?" Nat asked. "Cause I know a guy."
"Nonono guys I'm not pregnant I've just got big news." I said sitting down.

"I'm moving in with Timothée."
"Oh that's great." Lois said "Is it not?"
"But he's only here for a year right? What're you doing after that?" Flo said.

"After that...I'm gonna move to New York with him."
"Holy shit."
"Have you thought this through y/n?"
"What if you're not even together then? You won't have a place to live."

"We will be together then." I said matter of factly.
"How do you know?"
"We're gonna get married."
"Oh my god!"
"Are you crazy? You've known him for 4 months!"
"I love him,"

"So lemme get this straight." Flo said "You're giving up your apartment, the band, your job, your 20s all to marry some American you've known for not even half a year!"

Her words were harsh but logical. I however wasn't being logical.
"B-but I love him."
"What happened to the y/n who sworn she would never let a man tell her what to do? Look at yourself!" Nat shouted. "We've got a fucking record deal and you are throwing it away!"

"Hey Nat cool it she's crying." Kerr interrupted.
"No I won't fucking cool it!" She stood up angrily. "You know you're the best lead singer I've ever known but you're a selfish little brat!" She shouted before storming out.
"Nat I-" I burst into tears.

"I'm sorry y/n but I'm with Nat. You need to get your priorities in check." Flo left too.

Lois sat next to me on the couch and let me cry into her shoulder.
"Y/n I think you need to have a serious think about these things before just jumping in. Marriage and moving to a foreign country are two very big things."
"Uh but Lois it's with him."

"I know his eyes are dreamy and he loves you a fuck ton. But you can't let his life dictate yours. He's on one path and you're on another. That's okay."
"You're saying I should break up with him?"
"I'm saying do what's best for you not him."

...

"Hey you wanted to see me?" Timothée said as I let him in.
"Yeah," I said weakly. "Sit down."
He looked confused but obliged.

I sat facing him on the couch.
"Timothée, I love you so fucking much you know that right?"
"Yeah...and I love you w-what's going on?"
"I shouldn't have told you I can move to New York with you." His eyes widened and I looked down.
"What?"
"I- I can't. W-we can't be together the world won't allow it."
"You're talking crazy y/n." He lifted my chin so I was forced to gaze into his eyes as I cried.

"I can't do it Tim. I'd be miserable in New York and it's not right for me to go just for you."
"But I thought you loved me." His bottom lip quivered.
"I do. I'll never stop loving you. But I've got to let go. You've gotta let go."

"I- I don't wanna let go. We can make this work! It can work! Just move in with me and we'll be happy together!"
I shook my head.
"It's not fair for you or me."
He grabbed my face and kissed me roughly.
When he pulled away he gave me a blank look, still holding my cheeks.
I just shook my head and bowed it down sobbing.

He sniffled back tears, grabbed his coat and left.

A/N : This book will have a happy ending I swear. I just don't want their relationship to be happy go lucky from begging to end.