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|CHICAGO|May-1-12|

the bright light rays of the sun beams coming in from my white lace curtains made my eyes bust open I groaned as my face that was kissing a glass Hennessy a bottle moved seeing von laying on my hip holding onto my torso  like it was pillow and India on the bottom of the bed with T Roy who was almost about to fall of the bed

We all had got lit last night it was fun and India saw a side of von and T Roy that she's never seen they actually got along for once looking at the Hennessy bottle there still was a fourth of the bottle left I grabbed it swishing it down and got up walking to my dresser looking at the time It was 1:30 I shook my head taking another swish of Hennessy before opening my drawer pulling out some Jeans and a black white tee and some Air Force 1s

I walked to the bathroom and caught a glimpse of myself looking at myself I started to think what was I starting to become what was starting to happen I took a deep breath and downed another swish and put the bottle down and hopped in the shower

When I was almost finished getting ready everybody was up and they weren't that happy "how you don't have a hang over LA?"India asked "I'm still drunk"I answered "that ain't healthy"Von commented I shrugged

I knew it wasn't healthy but I don't want to talk about it I don't want to talk about anything to be honest that keeps me from raging all the time keeps all the pain away I hate remembering things

I applied clear lip gloss to my lips and kissed my lips at my mirror before putting on my earrings everybody else just waited on me to get ready

I was finally ready and it was silent between all of us I walked down the stairs behind everybody else and we all walked out my house and stood on my porch just in silence "what's the move today?" I asked looking over to T Roy "shit ion even kno lil folks"he answered "ima go fuck wit mena today"von answered I nodded at him "that's what's up"I said

I was kinda hurt the never wanted to spend time with me anymore it felt like if it wasn't me going to go get sai from vons moms house I didn't see him anymore last night was are first time hanging out in the longest time even when we did the vibe just wasn't there and I could feel they where just putting me off

"aye lil girl and india come on"d1 yelled from his car I turned around seeing him at the door of his car waiting on us India almost ran off to his car "well bye y'all y'all be safe"I said waving good boy to them

It felt like I was saying good bye for forever I need a drink I just need to get drunk and stop thinking because all of this silence is killing my buzz

I got in the car and watched them walked off "y'all tryna go to a party on the east side?"d1 asked "you driving?" I retorted "duh"he answered i nodded "so you coming lil girl?"he asked "yea I'll go I guess"I told him

we pulled into the parking lot of the party

"These your people right?"I asked one more time just to make sure who's name to say just in case my niggas need to shoot somebody

"yea how many times I'm gon tell you"he said giving me a smile i mugged him being serious I bought my gun with me every where I went no matter what

We all three got out the car the block was full off people some people posted up others in little circles talking and some twerking and playing around

"Come on lets go get a drink"I said pulling india with me causing us to split up with d1 and go are separate ways  going up to this guy he was lightskin with low hair and he had a Hennessy bottle in his hand "excuse me"I said nicely tapping him on his shoulder making him turn around "whatchu want shorty?"he asked "can me and my friend get some of yall bottle"I asked nicely "shit we can but it if you want us too"India said dogging in her purse tryna pull out some money "nah that's not gon be necessary"he said getting some cups pulling us some "thank you"we both said in union

He smiled at me and I smiled back you could tell he was very intelligent by the way he carried himself but he was still in the streets when I sipped some of my drink my nerves felt way better

I watched the party and before I knew it my cup was empty I was dancing on India "BOUNCE DAT ASSSSSSS!!"india screamed while I was throwing it back I don't even know where I learned it from but I was just doing it and I was good at it  I got up from twerking and  we started to look around "I see my friend over there you wanna come?"she asked I shook my head no because I would probably swing on them

when I stopped dancing I was just walking around trying to find d1 to take me home when I finally found him I was so happy "d1! I was looking for you everywhere can you take me home because India saw her friends and I need to go home"i told him d1 looked down at me and slowly tilted his head "you drunk?"he asked "boy take me home"i said slurring my words

I stood beside the car with d1s arm over me while I had a bottle in my hand I had never tried this type of liquor and don't know what it was called but I was drinking it while he smoked his blunt and his friends played dice in front of us "you turnt"d1 said smiling down at me I smiled back at him

He convinced me to stay and eat some bread so I wouldn't be as drunk as I was so now I'm back to doing what I was doing before I walked over to him

"Aye I  got a blunt in here rolled up for you lil sis"some dude said to me handing me a blunt in the little crack of the door he opened because they where in d1s car hot boxing I took it putting it in my mouth holding it with my lips i grabbed d1s hat off of his head putting it on mine backwards and walked over to the dice game

"aye  g somebody let me hold a five and use they lighter real quick"I spoke  a dark skin boy handed me a five and a another boy lit my blunt up  I inhaled the smoke holding it in watching the other guys play  and when I realized what to do I exhaled the smoke a little bit still holding some more in them finally let it go  I put down my five and grabbed the dice kissing it leaving clear lips gloss on them then threw them out I rolled a 7 Making everybody get mad

"Yea give me my stuff!"I said bending down taking all the money  then taking another hot off the blunt walking away going back to d1 smiling as smoke left my  nose and mouth making me choke he patted my back "you good lil girl?"he asked not that concerned still watching everyone else "yea cause i got moneyyyyy"I said flexing all the money I won "yea I seen you raw"he told me "duh and you know this man"I told him as I counted my money making sure I had five to give to the boy  I got five from

"Aye d1 it was this boy I got five from can you give this to him for me?"I asked he nodded giving me the five back "watchu giving it back for"I asked not taking it  "I can pay him wit my money keep yo money lil girl"he told me I heisted at first but then he just put it back in my hand

I hopped on top of the car laying down taking a swish of the bottle then leaning up a little handing d1 my blunt he took a hit and I just watched the stars they where so pretty one thing I loved  about Chicago was the parties and the city lights  it didn't matter what street I was on I was staying out until the street lights where I'm just to see them glow they gave  me a feeling  and night time made me feel super natural

It was the feeling party girls needed to fill there little fun heart because I sure needed it the most

( heyyyy. Ik y'all probably like wtf but Thoughts on LAs addiction to alcohol? )