overthinker | beomjun/yeongyu

five

beomgyu walked into his apartment building. he didn't greet his roommates sitting on the couch right in front of him, but instead walked up the stairs.

"well, hello to you, too." hueningkai said, the boy beside him hitting his shoulder.

beomgyu didn't bother being sassy back, as he flopped onto his bed.

after a couple minutes, he heard the door creak open a bit more, but he didn't bother looking to see who it was.

"gyu?" hearing that soft, comforting voice made beomgyu want to cry. taehyun was always there for him in every situation.

"taehyun, it happened again." the pout on the brunette's face was very visible as taehyun took a seat beside him on the bed.

"what did, baby?" the blonde asked, beginning to rub beomgyu's back.

"i'm in love with a straight guy."

"who, yeonjun?" beomgyu nodded slowly and taehyun just looked at him with the most confused face ever.

"i'm pretty positive yeonjun's gay, beomie." the brunette looked up, confused.

"but.. he said he was straight?" taehyun looked down, not wanting to say what was on his mind. "i know what you're thinking, hyunnie. maybe he said that cause he's not interested in me."

"hey gyu," the two made eye contact, "if all else fails, we can always just run away together." with a smile, taehyun fluffed beomgyu's hair.

"thanks, tae." they hugged and taehyun left the room, leaving beomgyu with his thoughts.

you'd think i'd be used to this feeling by now.

it's happened so many times, why wouldn't i be? i always fall for the guys who only think of me as a friend. the straight guys, too.

why me?

why can't i just be happy?

do i not deserve love? maybe i don't.