🌞 Hiiii ! If your reading this I'm extremely grateful ! So yeah , hopefully you enjoy this part ! ENJOY 🌞
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I soon got out of the shower and my cuts have now stopped bleeding.
I know I shouldn't be but I can't stop thinking about him.His eyes. The small smirk that seemed to be a permanent print on his lips. The way his...
" Bubs! (the name granny calls me ) dinners ready ! "
Oh no I forgot all about dinner with granny, I swear she cooks for an army when it's only the two of us! Oh we'll ill just pretend I've got a stomach ache , yeah she'll believe that. And with thy thought I pulled on some black leggings and my long sleeved white cotton top and put my wet hip length hair in a messy bun.I plodded down the stairs as always and then proceeded to jump the last two steps , which I had been doing ever since I started living with granny, I arrived in our kitchen/dining room and sat down. Know I have a good look at her my granny really is a beautiful woman, Evan though she may be old she has natural beauty and a calming and relaxing feel about her which makes you love her even more and she had these beautiful pale blue eyes that somehow hold every little emotion in my granny's body an-
" -ily tiger-lily! Oh bubs can you stop clambering with the fairies and stay with me sometimes" my granny looks at me with clear exhaustion , am I the reason for that? OF COURSE YOU ARE , YOU'RE NOTHING BUT AN ANNOYING PEST THAT YOUR DEAR GRANNY CAN'T GET RID OF BECAUSE SHE DOENT HAVE THE HARDNESS TO HER ! , shut up ! I yelled back to my head this talking thing is getting really annoying! I thought as my granny served me an overloaded plat of boiled cabbage, mash, carrots and some Quorn chicken ( if you don't know what Quorn is google it ) "oh god " I said quietly but hopefully loud enough that granny will hear
" are you okay ty?" YES! It worked "not really granny I feel so ill" I groaned "oh Jesus, go up and rest ill save your dinner and get some medicine" I literally had to eat my lip to stop from grinning at the fact that my plan actually worked!
I ran up the stairs and jumped right into my cozy bed and started relaxing when HE popped into my head ONCE AGAIN TODAY, "Jesus I hope this isn't going to be a regular thing" I mumbled to myself
" what don't you hope will be a regular thing bubs?" My granny just appeared in my door way looking very innocent and curious , JESUS SHE HEARD ME ! " oh u-u-um n-nothing aha" GOD WHY MUST YOU MAKE ME THE WORST LIAR IN THE WORLD! " oh okay then bubs just take this and rest up and hey look on the bright side it's a Friday so NO MORE SCHOOL FOR TWO DAYS WHOO ! " my granny said trying to make two days sound like two years. I took the spoon of vile liquid and tried to sleep however, a grumbling stomach seems to keep me awake so, I start scratching myself, my thighs, my hip., all up my arms and digging in to draw blood across my rips JESUS IT FEELS SO GOOD AND I FINALY FEEL AT PEACE however, that's all gone out the window when I realise I need to clean off the blood before it stains my white bed.
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After cleaning up I decided to listen some music so I put it on shuffle and good enough by little mix came on and I just say on my bed thinking about the words humming along until Perrie's bit came on and I started singing full of emotion and when that song finishes 'suicide song' came on by clariyah and I just started yelling the lyrics feeling every letter in every word and about half way through I was yelling with every bit of air in my lungs and crying my eyes out as suicidal thoughts ran through my mind. As songs as that song finished I turned around to look out my window however the god-like thing blocked my view made me want to die in a hole from my emotional exposure.
🌜THANK YOU FOR READING ! And I hope you check out those songs because their rally good BYE !! X 🌛
