🌞HEYYY !! I decided to carry on for whoever wants to read this and there is bullying and self-harm in this chapter but its not very detailed however, if you feel this will trigger you don't read 🌞
As I walked back from the library I kept getting weird stares off of nearly everyone is the corridor ? Why is everyone looking ? I self-consciously looked myself up an down , yet could not see anything attached or ripped on my black leggings or grey hoodie." Just forget it !" I chanted in my head " your okay just get to your locker and leave quickly !" I also said to myself. I felt my self sweating , no not another one I can't have one in front of everyone , my bully's will think I'm weak and hit and yell and me harder and harsher , I started speed walking to my locker , not wanting to get caught sweating like a pig in a slaughter house when it's lower than -2 degrees outside they will think something's up ,which I really don't want ," Finely" I sighed ,relieved , as I saw locker 802 come into my view . I ran the rest of the way and jumbled about exchanging everything in and out of my locker and backpack. As soon as that was done I sprinted out the doors and ran to my door , well tried , as I ran I bumped into what seemed like a wall and feel on my bum , which hurt like hell ! , and then as I looked up to glare at the stupid wall that bumped into me I saw them , the most amazing midnight blue orbs staring blankly at me , as I got up he slowly started to smirk " what ?! , is there something wrong with you why are you smirking ?! " obviously surprised by my reaction he dropped his smirk and then gained his composure " well" he started to say " I was just happily passing by minding my own business when what sounded like a stampede of elephants came round the corner and then this tiny girl comes round the corner and doesn't look up and runs head first into my chest " his smirk remains ,
"Well I'm so very sorry for my weight ! " I said in a bitter , sarcastic tone " however I have places to be ( like home to eat pizza but after his comments I'm now rethinking my dinner however , his never gonna now that I'm a lonely weirdo ) and if a dumb boob like you can't even move a few steps when they see someone's in a rush then I'm afraid you need to go back to mummy and hopefully she at least can teach you how to coordinate your eyes " I said back in a taunting manner
" well ,daddy's little bitchess(now that one hit me hard ) all I need from your weak-little-self is an apology and I will forget all about this little accident of your's " after that harsh insult I became so angered my body was now shaking and every little muscle in my body was now clenched . I pulled out my pocket knife , now I know your all going like " aha a pocket knife what the hells that gonna do Tiger-Lilly ! " well this pocket knife is pretty big and I have amputated fingers in one swift movement with this knife before . As I became ready for the fight I realised it , why the hell didn't I realise this before ! What's wrong with you ty ( tiger-Lily's nick name ) there he stood the towns bd boy . Hunter State . I just ran , ran and ran until I got to my small cottage , I live with my granny and she's usually cooking or out feeding the chickens and goats and yes we do own a farm but we only have a small herd of cows,four horses , which are mine and are gorgeous , and some sheep , goats , pigs and chickens and if you haven't guessed I love animals . As I tumbled through the door I smelt my granny making some soda bread and realised its going to be hella hard to lose weight with granny hear so I went upstairs to my room and pulled out my bag from under my mattress and went into the bathroom " YOUR FAT , LOSE WEIGHT !! , YOUR UGLY , NO WONDER YOU HAVEN'T GOT A BOYFRIEND !! " the encouraging voices in my head said and I slid the cold , sharp metal across my wrists and further up my arms and just sat there for a few minutes to feel the relieving pain and watched the blood seep through my skin , I sat there in needed relief and fear of going deeper and then just decided to get in the shower and wash away another horrid day.
🌞 Another part so I was wondering any writer will see this and If you do could you please give my any writing tips ? Thank you for reading ! BYE BEAUTIFUL (S) x 🌞
