Poetry by Luxy Suicidesx

Cut me Open

Trigger warning

        This is about what was forced upon me last year and it's really hard to think about, but I wanted to post this anyway.

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        You loved me only once a week,

        When you knew you could control me. 

        Beat me, ravage me, make me bleed.

        Cut me open for the world to see.

        You forced me down, my face in the sheets,

        Called me your pet as you destroyed me.

        Took all my strength and left me weak.

        Cut me open like I was supposed to be.

        

        I'd go home at night and cry,

        With all the bloodstains I had to hide.

        Remind myself of that lie,

        Tell myself you love me, that's why.

        

        Why you did what you did in your room.

        Why you ripped me from my jeans.

        But love, true love, waits yet it happened anyway.

        I lost everything that I had to believe.

        

        People would ask about the bruises,

        You told me to say that I fell down the stairs.

        So I lied, did as you said, but they all knew.

        But none of them cared.

        I had to be careful what I said,

        cause I knew it would only make you mad.

        But it made me wish I were dead.

        I wish I wasn't so bad.

        If I weren't a bad girlfriend,

        You wouldn't have done that to me.

        If I were a good girlfriend,

        We would've been meant to be.

        

        But every night you left me broken,

        razor in hand to cut me open...