Promise: Clementine x Male Reader

The Passing Down of The Torch

You sit outside on the porch steps just thinking about what you've done and had to do to get where you are in this moment, who you had to kill and pain you were out through, it's just a lot for anyone to bare, the thoughts are shortly cut off when Violet steps outside for some air

Y/N: You done bathing the kid? Down

Violet: Yes, Mr. Leader

Y/N: Hey, it's harder than you think running a town full of people... A lot more than some kids, I can almost feel the pressure Marlon most likely did

Violet: You didn't abandon anyone like a coward though

Y/N: Actually I did... I left behind Jasper and Eren... She walked through a tripwire and there wasn't anything I could do, Eren just-- there was no saving her but Jasper was a stubborn guy... Walkers swarmed the place quickly and that was it, do I die there or run and live another day with Sophie and my friends... Needless to say, I lived another day and they didn't

Violet: Why bring it up now?

Y/N: I don't know... I hadn't thought about it in a while until today, I had a dream about it of all things... Weird, huh?

Violet: It's really whatever

Y/N: I've killed a lot of people, Violet... Sometimes I think Sophie wouldn't even recognize the man I've become... A man, yeah now I'm pretty much an adult now, at least I'll be eighteen soon enough

Violet: It doesn't feel much different if you ask me... I'm almost twenty then

Y/N: Yeah... But what do you think Sophie would be like if she were really here?

Violet: I wonder that... If she and Minnie were-- I just forget it though, and Minnie-- Well fuck her... After what she's done, she doesn't deserve my sympathy anymore

Y/N: Yeah, maybe you're right... I wondered what Sophie was feeling the moment it happened, she wouldn't have expected it... It was her sister and then... Did she drown afterward? Is she a walker right fucking now? All questions I desperately don't wanna know the answer to, but can't stop myself from asking

Violet: Thoughts like that never fully fade... They're just kept locked up inside of you until you just burst, we can never forget them as hard as we try

Y/N: I know... That's why I'm hoping I won't have more to worry about in the future

Violet: Anymore? Like what?

Y/N: I've lived a bad life so far, killed people who didn't always need killing... Hurt so many people, it just kinda gets to you at times

Violet: Well what's bugging you?

Y/N: I'm supposed to feel happy, I'm supposed to feel swell I mean almost all of us our alive... But instead, something eats away towards me and I can't quite figure out what that is

Violet: You saved me dumbass and AJ... So don't think too hard about it

Y/N: I know I did... And I know what I did to get you all back, but the things I've had to do to people these... Misguided people

Violet: They deserved what was given to them

Y/N: Do they deserve to change us and who we are? Killing is a must inside this world now... You know that and so do I, but that shouldn't mean it gets effect us

Violet: What they've done, what they were going to do should change that

Y/N: I did the right thing, I've been telling myself that for the past week... But last night made that even more difficult for me to believe, Did I do the right thing, Violet? Did I?