Always and forever

67 - Discovering

Can

That night on the beach was a turning point for our relationship, having apologised to her for my past behaviour, being honest with her about how I feel has brought her closer to me, she looks at me with new eyes and more confidence.

I realise that since that evening an important step forward has been taken and our being together night and day is slowly helping her to become familiar with me, with my touch, with my embrace, with my body.

My manoeuvres to win her back continue unabated and for tonight I have told her to dress up because I have a surprise in store for her, I want to spoil her and court her shamelessly, it's what I want more than anything else and it's what this beautiful woman who has done everything for my love deserves.
I too have dressed with care for the evening and now I have gone to sit on the terrace leaving her free to prepare herself calmly, I hear the door of the room open, I turn to look at her and I am literally stunned.
I have before me a stunning woman in a simple, knee-length, tight-fitting black sheath dress with thin straps dotted with rhinestones. The dress wraps her body in the right places, highlighting her slim but shapely figure: she is stunning.

I swallow with difficulty trying to compose myself, it will be a long evening during which I will have to force myself to keep my hands and lips away from her, from her bare shoulders and from those full lips perfectly outlined by a scarlet red lipstick.

I get up from the armchair and walk towards her, enchanted, I take her hand and bring it to my lips, looking intensely into her eyes - You are a vision Sanem, you are beautiful, I can't take my eyes off you, you are overwhelmingly beautiful.
As I speak I remember a theatre in the shade, her white dress, her astonished eyes in mine and a long, sensual kiss that was a déjà vu but at the same time a harbinger of a new beginning, of our being together at last.
I would like to kiss her right now but I can't, I don't want to pressure her in any way, she will decide when to come to this further turning point in our relationship, I promised to respect her time and I will. She smiles and looks at me from head to toe smugly - You Can Divit are not bad yourself, to what do we owe all this elegance? - I look at my elegantly cut black trousers and white shirt, this time devoid of any accessories.

- There doesn't have to be a special reason to take the most beautiful woman I've ever seen out to dinner, we're simply celebrating the fact that we're together -

I hold out my arm to her - Shall we move on to our romantic evening? -

She looks at me smiling - Ah, will it be romantic? -

- Of course, every moment we spend together is romantic for me, they all contribute to building our new story and helping me climb towards your heart Sanem, it's the thing I most want in the world -

As we walk she stops on the spot and looks at me in amazement - And since when did Can Divit become so romantic? -

- Since he has to win back the heart of the woman of his life, his wife -

I smile at her surprised look and escort her out of the house, to the off-road vehicle that I have rented so that we can move around freely in the months to come. I drive slowly along the huge roads that run alongside the sea, holding her hand and occasionally bringing it to my lips for a kiss.

When we arrive at the restaurant by the sea where I have booked for the evening I get out and go to open the door to help her gallantly get out of the jeep, I don't miss the opportunity to admire her beautiful legs left uncovered by the mini dress while she is getting out, she notices my glance and looks at me threateningly but smiling.

We enter the restaurant and the waiter accompanies us to our table, we are right on time, the most spectacular sunset that the sky could give us is there waiting for us and to make us sigh, the soft music and the thousands of strings of lights cleverly arranged between the poles of the patio contribute to making the atmosphere extremely romantic.

I'm happy because I see Sanem beaming, she looks around enraptured and then returns with her gaze to lose herself in mine - Thank you Can, it's beautiful here, it's a dream -.

- You are a dream, you are my dream. We are always together and yet not a single moment in my dreams can I be without you, all I do is see you and see you again, they are images of these days we spent together or of our previous life, and in each of them I see you as the most incredible and wonderful being I have ever seen.

She looks at me for a long time, it seems she is about to say something when the arrival of the waiter breaks the enchantment of the moment, we dine in a relaxed and complicit atmosphere, our gazes are taking on new meanings that I hope will soon bring our relationship to a turning point.

When the dessert is finished I get up and offer her my hand - May I have this dance Mrs Divit?

She stands up grasping my outstretched hand and follows me towards the terrace overlooking the sea where other couples are already dancing a slow dance played by a live orchestra, while I take her in my arms and bring hers to clasp my neck she says - It seems strange when you call me that - j

-Mrs Divit? -That's what you are right? You are my wife Sanem, I have no intention of changing that.

I am yours as you are mine, it is meant to be so because we belong together beyond everything, even my amnesia, even despite that I soon found you in my heart and soul. You are a substantial part of it and will be so forever Sanem -

- And what about your wandering heart? The one that feels the need to experience adventure? What will you do when another humanitarian mission calls you back to who knows what corner of the world? -

- I promised I'd never let go of your hand Sanem, and that's what I'll do...

-Listen Can, my question was provocative, I absolutely don't want you to think I'm so selfish that you would give up your work and passion to be near me, if our relationship was solid, if we were really sure of our feelings for each other, I would never ask you not to leave if you wanted to. It is right that you can make the decisions that you think are right for you and I will be waiting for you when you return without any problems. We had broached this subject after your marriage proposal, I said exactly the same words to you and you replied that you did not want to leave me. But that was what THAT Can wanted, if it should be different for you I want you to know that I would support every decision you make always and in any case tamam, ok?

I hold her tighter in my arms and hide my face in the crook of her neck inhaling her wonderful scent - Sanem, sometimes it's more important to know you're free than to forcefully prove you are by leaving everything and everyone behind. What you've just told me is beautiful and makes you even more precious in my eyes, you're special Sanem, you're unique and I don't want to lose you, I'll never let that happen again.

We look into each other's eyes for a long time as we move to the slow rhythm of the music, held in an embrace that says it all, it says that we're finding each other again and discovering each other in a different way and that we like what we're unveiling, slowly we'll get to where we belong, in each other's hearts and arms.