(Online Love)

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Emerald's POV
'We should get together and catch up baby😘' Is he joking? IS HE ACTUALLY JOKING?!? What the fuck went through his brain where he thought he could go to my insta and comment on it.

"I- I can't do this right now." I tell them. This was supposed to be a fun trip. How does he get to ruin it with one comment?

"I'm gonna go for a swim." I then grab a towel and leave. Do I really care that I don't have a swimsuit? Nope. I'll skinny dip or something. Not like there's anyone else here by now. 'S pretty dark.

     I just need to swim. I used to be on the swim team in highschool. I'd say I was pretty good I guess. Helps me forget bout everything and almost everyone. Almost.

     Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry. Drink, drink, drink. Don't cry, please. No one likes it when you cry. A warm tear slides down my face as I try to hold it in together. Why the fuck is there so many steps to get to the beach.

     I start taking off my clothes. I still have my undwerwear on though. Thank god mother nature didn't make it cold tonight.

     "EM" I hear Owen and Lila just yell out my name. Ignore them. Swim. Don't cry. Fucking hell how did everything get so bad?

     "Please leave, leave me alone guys. Just wanna sw-swim." Did they hear me? I dont know if I was loud enough and they aren't really that close.

     "C'mon put your clothes on E." Owen walks towards me but all I do is take a few steps back. I shake my head and turn back around. I want to swim.

     I can feel them coming closer to me.

     "Guys pl-please, just, just go back to the housy thingy." Do not cry Emerald. I swear to god if one more tear leaves my face im going to loose it.

     Someone's hands are on my shoulder. I think it's Lila's since I painted Owen's nails blue yesterday.

      "You can't swim, you're drunk." I'm not? I'm not. I would know I think. Maybe.

      "Then can I go to the hot tub?" I ask. Guess it's the next best thing. Why is so hard for them to understand that I want to swim?

      "Okay but we're going with you. And please put some clothes on babe." Lila nods as I roll my eyes.

     "Close your eyes O-Owen."

     "Wh-" I take of my bra and he shuts his eyes tight. It kinda funny.

     "Oh, thaaaats why." He does his cute, awkward, little white boy smile as I put on my light pink shirt and no shorts on.

     "Open." He looks a little hesitant but opens his eyes. I laugh because he's just staring. Don't even remember what I was sad about.         

     "'m not putting any more clothes on. Lets go." i stumble over to the hut tub, my eyes slowly becoming heavier and heavier.

     Lila gets in and helps me, since apperantly I can "barely even walk." Bullshit.

     "You ma'am, are a saint." I smirk and sit on her lap. Lila hugs me softly. I love her. I LOVE HER.

      "She loves you too." Li chuckles and sits me next to her. Huh. Guess I said that out loud. Coooool.

       "What about me? Does anyone here love me????" Owen asks and i turn to him.

      Next thing I know im kissing him. Kissing.

     "I do. I looooooove you." He smiles at me. That god damn smile. Fuck.

     "You guys are my besties. The good version of my ex besties. Because Owen won't r word me and Lila won't tell everyone and then side with the person who did. I think. I hooope." I laugh a little but everyone else is silent.

     "Im sorryyyyy" Oh my god my eyes hurt. I just, I just need to close them for a little bit. Maybe forever. Yea forever. Hopefully.