my sadness is noticeable
But my family doesn't see it
Because they wouldn't understand
Thats why i don't tell them how I'm really feeling
That's why i don't go to them for help
To one of them I'm stupid fat ugly and weird
Those words have haunted me for years
In school with my friends those words play in my head
Like a catchy song that won't get out of your head
Then the voices came to my head
Saying things far worse
I've lost my self confidence
I lost myself in a world of depression
My boyfriend can try and save me but I'm to far gone
Who knows one day I'll tell him "i'll text u later "
With no reply,later he gets worried
Then he hears about a girl
A girl who committed suicide the next day
And out it was his girlfriend who is me
Guilt will wash over him,when he doesn't deserve it
Thinking how he could've saved the girl he really liked
After all that thinkig he goes home and swallows a handful of pills
And sleep takes over him,only this one will be permanent
as he wakes up as a ghost looking down at his now dead body
He looks up and sees her,the girl he has missed so long
His girlfriend standing before him
She smiles and says "hi"
He lets out a sob and says "i missed you so much"
He runs to her side and hugs her
She puts her head up and wiped his tears away and says "i missed you more"
He lets out a chuckle and she laughs along
He leans in and so does she
And they share a kiss...
And as they part she takes his hand
She tells him "lets go"
He stops "in there" he says as he points to the light
"Yes" she replies and he says "i can go in there?"
She giggles and replies "yes you deserve to be in there. I like you a lot and i wasn't going to go in without you...we've been through a lot and now we can have peace..."
She holds his hand a little tighter and continues "forever..."
He smiles as they both walk in...
Into heaven...
