everlasting pain ⤷‧₊˚ levi ackerman

caress

In the middle of the night.

As the moonlight shines onto your faces.

Levi opens his eyes to see you already awake, gazing at him.

"Creep" he says.

You lightly laugh and caress his soft hair.

His expression slowly turns into a frown, like something invaded his thoughts.

"What's wrong?" you softly say.

He sighs and takes your hand, intertwining them.

"I never said before, but I'm sorry" he quietly says.

Your furrow your eyebrows in confusion.

"But we already apolog- ".

"No, darling let me explain" he cuts off.

You slightly nod once, waiting for what he is going to say.

"I feel guilty that you never got to know why I 'despised' you before and..." he trails on, using his fingers like apostrophes on the word 'despised'.

He closes his eyes and shifts.

"I never hated you Y/n" he says with slight emotion.

"Then why...?" you question.

What had made him to act like that towards me then?

I thought I was just annoying and cold...

"I've always loved you the moment we met,

I was simply confused by what I felt towards you" he says with furrowed eyebrows.

"I didn't like the feeling, so I wanted to make you hate me to rid of it".

Your face turned into understanding and sympathy "Levi..."

You understood why he did it.

He had just lost his friends.

Of course, he wouldn't want to feel these emotions when mourning.

"Tch" he croaks out with a slight crack in his voice.

The grip on your hand gets tighter as he sinks his head closer to the pillow.

You reach to the back of his head, bringing him close to rest in the crook of your neck.

"Y-y/n, I never meant anything I s-said to you" he says with a sniff.

He was trying his best to hold out the tears.

"I was j-just stupid and I'm sorry".

He sharply inhales, breathing out a shaky breath.

You kept caressing his hair.

You wanted him to let it all out.

"Gosh, all of your scars are from me Y/n".

"How c-can you love someone who gives you scars?" Levi says, his voice full of sadness.

Your expression turns to disbelief "How can you say that, Levi?"

"I love you; I don't care about the stupid scars" you strongly say.

He kept repeating "I'm sorry" again and again.

As you laid soft kisses on his head, you forgive him.

You've always forgave him.

"Past is past, let's focus on now, yes my love?"

You feel him slightly nod with a sniffle.

"I love you endlessly" you say lovingly.

You meant it.

"Thank you,

I love you" he says as you drift off.

In the arms of your beloved.