spencer reid one shots

forever and always

Spencer has been gone for three days and eight hours. I hate when he's away on long cases because the long cases are when I tend to overthink. Being alone in the apartment we share does something to me. It's too big for one person to be alone in. I normally end up laying in bed all day, the tv droning in the background, waiting for him to come home. Why me? Why did he choose me to be his girlfriend?

I've always been self-conscious about my looks but lately, it's gotten worse. I know I should feel great, being with Spence and all but I feel like I repulse him sometimes. I've got stretch marks, my thighs are too big, I've got too much skin around my stomach, and sometimes I can't even look at myself without makeup on. Why? Why does he love me? He could be with anyone he wanted. He's so cute and adorable and surprisingly toned underneath his clothes. I just don't get it.

I'm pulled out of my thoughts by the bedroom door opening but it's too late and I don't have time to wipe away my tears before spencer sees them. Concerned, he drops what he's carrying and rushes over to me.

He doesn't say anything but just pulls me in his arms instead. I lay like that for a while. Me, sobbing and him, rubbing circles on my arms. When I can't cry anymore I raise my head to look at him but before I can say anything he interjects.

"Baby, you don't have to say anything if you're not ready. Do you wanna watch a movie?"

I shake my head and tell him no. "Why me?" I ask, "Why do you love me? I bet you get hit on all the time by much prettier girls when you're out. I mean look at me, I have all these stretch marks and I'm fat. And I feel terrible. We haven't even done anything yet because I hate how I look. I'm just hurting you. Why don't you just break up with me already?"

For a second he's speechless. I don't think I've ever opened up to him this much.

"(Y/n), I love you because of the person you are. You know I don't care about how you look. You're the most caring, compassionate, considerate, and yes, most beautiful woman I've ever known. I love you for you. And I don't care what you say. I love the way your body looks. I don't care we've never done anything. (Y/n), I would wait forever if it meant you were finally comfortable with me seeing you. I don't know who hurt you, but I'm not them. I will love you forever and always and I will never tell you you need to change yourself for me. I can't stress to you enough how much I'm in love with you and how much I'll always be in love with you. Forever and always," he says and smiles at me.

"Thank you for saying all that, Spence. It means a lot," I say to him and rest my forehead against his. He takes his hands in mine and begins littering kisses all over my face, making me giggle.

"Spence, stop it," I say and continue laughing.

"No, not until I've kissed every single inch of your face," he says with a smile.

"So, do you wanna order some takeout and watch doctor who?"

"Do you even have to ask?" I joke as I grab the remote
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this ones kinda short but I thought it would be cute to do something like this! hope you liked it! I'm open to requests or feedback you might have :)