Loving The Pain

Chapter 18

CHAPTER 18 "LOVING THE PAIN"

(Warning: Scenes that were written in the story is the Author's pure imagination, nothing is related to personal life. Just fanfiction.)

"Follow Mama, okay?" I said. "Na.." she followed, "Pa.." she followed again, "Pa.." pero hindi na niya yon nasunod at nagulat lang ako sa sunod niya nasabi.

"Papa? Where is Papa, Mama?" Clueless, she asked.

"Papa?" wala sa sariling sagot ko rin.

"Yes Mama, Mommy Yeng told me that if Mama and Papa love each other, Papa God will give them a baby and that's why you have me, but why don't I have a Papa then?"

'Jusko naman kasi Yenggay!' Anang isip ko.

"Baby, listen to Mama, okay?" I cupped her face. "Mama and Papa need to separate ways for us to be okay, and don't you ever think that you don't have a Papa because you have but for the meantime, you won't be able to see him," I explain to her.

"Why Mama?" She asked.

"Because he's too busy to have time for you." I lied.

"Does he love me? Does he know?" Her tears are starting to burst out.

"Your Papa can't meet you, Angel please understand, Okay?" As a sign of agreement she nodded her head and hug me tight.

I know that what am I doing right now is wrong but I don't have anything to say anymore. Our last communication with Erik is 2 years ago. I know he doesn't have any idea on what I have right now and what is happening. Nakilala niya na si Evangeline pero hindi bilang anak niya kundi bilang pamangkin.

'Flashback...'

"As soon as possible we need to have blood that would match your daughter's blood type." The Doctor said.

"Angeline we don't have time anymore," Yeng exclaimed.

I have nothing to do but cry and agree to her suggestion. 'For the baby's sake.' I thought. She said Erik will be here in an hour and he's our only way to save the baby because they have the same blood type. The baby got his genes more.

Napag-usapan na namin na hindi sasabihin kay Erik ang tungkol sa bata at ang dahilan naman ni Yeng ay ampon niya lang iyon at kailangan na kailangan niya ng tulong para mailigtas ang bata. Sinabihan ko narin siya na sabihin kay Erik na wag na akong hanapin kasi busy ako sa trabaho. Hindi pa ako handa para harapin siya at ayaw ko din makasira ng taong may pamilya na. Call me selfish pero ayaw ko sanang bigyan ng magulong buhay ang anak ko.

Out of energy, I felt my body slowly giving up. Nasa isang private room ako ngayon malayo sa kwarto ng anak ko. I pray harder and beg Lord God to help me get through this and give me chance to be a mother and father to my child. Nakatulugan ko na ang pag-iyak at kakaisip kung anon a baa ng nangyayari sa labas.

Nagising ako ng may marinig akong umiiyak na bata. I slowly open my eyes and to my surprise, I saw a baby crying outloud beside me. Iginala ko ang paningin ko sa loob ng kwarto para hanapin si Yeng pero wala akong nakitang tao. Kahit masakit ang katawan ko ay dahan-dahan akong bumangon at kinuha ang nag-iiyak na bata sa tabi ko. I hum a song to make this cute little girl stop crying. Natahimik naman ito at nakatulog nalang ulit. Minutes later I heard the door open so I quickly turn my head to the person who's coming in.

"Buti naman napatahimik mo yan." She giggled.

"Whose daughter is this?" Tanong ko.

"That's you Little Evangeline Faith Quinto Santos." Pinagdidiinan niya ang bawat salita na binibitawan.