Unwanted Feelings (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 4: The Secret Sorrow

(Jimin POV)

"You're hitting on me?"
"Are they in relationship"
"M-maybe"

These people are so annoying.

........

You don't have to say what it is, I already know. You two will go on date right . I'll support your relationship if I needed to

I left behind and started to walk home.

When I pass the gate I look at Jungkook and saw him smiling

"Pfft! He never smiled like that to me, maybe once" a smile that is so pure

Then my stomach grumble

"It's okay I can cook!" I said happily just to motivate myself

"Though it's bad" I added and chuckled

.......

When I got home I slouch in sofa and turn the television. The movie is pretty boring though

Then this sad movie appear. It hurt that much especially when you kinda relate to that

"What's wrong with me?" I said

"Why do I have to feel this way?" I added

I stand up and go to refrigerator and have a can of beer

"Hmm! Why do I have to be jelous when he didn't even like me"

"Pffft!"

It's funny 'cause I'm the one who only feel this way

If he knows will he leave me? I guess it's better to hide it than being left alone

I always confused myself about "it hurts to love" but actually I was wrong all the time because the truth is "someone who didn't know you love them hurt you". That's the fact

"I acted like it wasn't big deal when it's really breaking my heart so bad"

Then I put my arms in my eyes which leads me to cry that badly

It's like something is piercing through my heart.

I don't want this, I don't like this it hurts

Then I quench my heart

"P-please stopp! I'm begging you"

It hurts when you realize you aren't as important as someone you thought you were.

"I-I" my tears still flowing

"I feel like my h-heart's been ripped out"

"If I continue to act like nothing, can I h-handle this pain until the very end?"

It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you...

Because you change me, that's it

You make me comfortable when others can't

With you I experience different emotions that I didn't feel back then

"S-should I be t-thankful that you came in my life or should I r-regret it"

I can't speak properly since I'm out of breath

"Why does this hurt so bad"

"When will this stop. I hate this!"

And then everything's went black

.......

"Jiminshi~"

"Is this dream? If this is, can you please recognize how you make me love you" I uttered