Unwanted Feelings (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 5: Romantic Attachment

(Jimin's POV)

Yesterday I was so hot that I ended up in infirmary.

And now I wanted to go in school even though it's already pass noon.

I wanted to go to groceries but remembered I can't lift heavy things so I decided to be with Jungkook so that he can assist me when...

"Then can you be my girlfriend"

And my whole world stop.

I wanted to know who he's talking to but I know from the moment that it was Lisa.

Then I ran out of energy.

"Pfft! I feel defeated!" I uttered then I feel like throwing up

It's disgusting and I feel sick more than before

"M-mochi?!"

Then I heard this familiar voice coming towards me then I look up and

"H-hyung?"

I couldn't stop my tears from falling

"What happen?! It's okay" he said while hugging me

I bawl and wail and he's there trying to figure it out what's wrong with me

"Are feeling okay now?" Then he smiled which makes me calm a little bit

"What happen?" Hyung ask worriedly

"Hyung?! He was never be mine b-but losing him broke my h-heart" then I started to cry again

"Ohhh! It's okay I'm in your side okay? "

"Hyung~ why does it hurt so much"

"Mochi! Because you loved him too much and he simply didn't...." He uttered

"I loved you since from the start so why not me?" He whispered

I didn't hear that since I cry loudly that I only hear my whimper

"You know it hurts me too"

"Hyunggg!!!~"

"Are you going home after this?"

Honestly, I feel so stupid for holding on to things that just keep hurting me

When there's someone out there who loves me but I simply denied it.

"I want to but I don't want to see him"

Then he gets his phone and texted Jungkook.

"What did you say hyung?"

"I said that I saw you collapses in the street and you'll be staying in my home tonight" and he smiled cutely with that boxy smile he has

"T-thanks hyung! I don't know how to repay you"

"Well you're always welcome. If you wanted to repay me there's one thing"

"Ehh? Will that cost expensively?"

Then I was jokingly look at my wallet and dang! I'm broke

"Nahh not really. You just simply love me that's all" then he chuckled

"Well I love you already will that count?" Then we both laugh

"I-I mean just me and no one else" He said

"Okay? I'll try I guess"

Why can't I love hyung as I love Jungkook?

"Pffft! You really take that seriously mochi?"

Why love is so hard?
Why can't we simply choose someone who love us than someone who don't
Why love makes us blind

........

"Oh! Mochi, you can wear my pajamas"

"Thanks hyung. Though its very big to me"

Then I look at the mirror and

"It smells like you hyung"

I saw his eyes widened and cheeks turning red

"Ha! Hyung you're blushing"

As I was keep teasing him

Then he rushes to me and hug me while we were laughing very loudly

"I'm glad you feel okay now" he said while patting my head

"I'm really thankful hyung"

"Save your thanks since it has condition right hahahaha"

"What if I can't do that"

"There's nothing you can do since the one who decide is your heart"

I can see the pain behind those smile

"Hyung! I love you"

I want to make him feel better by saying those words

then I hug him.

"I love you too mochi"

I felt this warmth before but this warmth says love and grief