Addicted to doctor forth ✔

27.Stay away from me

in the evening staying in lam room, beam playing with his phone in lam room he heard a knock on door when he opened the door he find no human he look around and down to find a large brown box which is tapped neatly with a card over the box

he picked up reading the label mentioning his name on top of the box to open, once again a long look to entire flat he placed the box on the bed and gets a scissor to open when he opens the box his gasped to see a new set of clothes it was an yellow hoodie with a rainbow and a blue jean, a small pocket like bag when he untied it he was lost it was white Armani brief with blue band he blushed when he looks around and walks out form the room he searches for forth he cannot find him anywhere. He gets a message form forth "your clothes, get ready for evening date, hope the size fits you"

beam rushed back to room and gauzes the clothes box his fingers are trembling as if he touch the cloth it will tare he puffed his cheeks they were new clothes which he never buy for himself, which he could never afford, he is feeling guilty to receive them because in the end of the day he is ready to be apart from forth

feeling sad he sit to bed and cuddled his knees closer to his chest and looks to the closed window, no! he don't want to leave forth he is trying to stay not for forth showering him with gifts but the love forth holds for him, even after many long years, the boding between them did not fade away, just like him forth also hold onto their love and he gets a tears smile but right then he is scared to open up, he don't want to be back to those days where he will left alone and be scared in counting days to live he don't choose to bother forth he don't want forth to suffer along with him! he is sick! He is not any good enough for forth

if he choose to leave forth side, forth will get a better person more better than him who can take care of the doctor who is working hard for people

tears streams down he hastily rubs his cheeks, pulling the shirt collar closer to his nostrils he breaths and hugs the shirt close to him, feeling forth closer to him, the shirt smells like forth and warms him up, he is sobbing up he is getting scared he curled up on bed and letting the tears fall while he hug himself feeling forth spooning form behind he closed his eyes letting the tears fall down, what should he do? should he give up! No he cannot! Then how to ease his feelings, he wants forth? Yes, he want! No doubt! Yet what is stopping him? Afraid and scared that past will haunt him? Yes he is, he rubbed his unease chest which is tightening not letting him to breath, why he is suffocating at the thought of leaving forth! Should not he be happy? No he never will be happy! But he don't want to spoil forth happiness too, forth can forget him and be happy with someone

Discerning over and over about his future with forth, how long he can keep forth happy? He is scared what if one day he leaves forth! He don't want forth to be left in pain

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He cannot do this anymore, he will choose to get away from forth,It took time for him to get ready for his date, his first date holding the hoodie close to his naked chest he looks down to the one straight long scar and closed his eyes letting the tears fall. He quickly cleaned those tears and put on the hoodie

"..how much time do you need to!!!" the impatient yelling, beam chuckled taking a once last look to mirror he hurried his way to the door, he breathes in and out and unlocks the door

Forth stands to the opened door he keeps staring besides struggling to say a few words, he just keeps looking to beam being dressed up in light yellow colour hoodie and a blue jean he looks like a cute lemon.

beam feeling heat creeping his cheeks and ear he pushed past forth shoulder "..hurry up"

Forth broke form whatever dream he is dreaming he followed beam out while beam is gasping and controlling his heart forth wore a plain night blue shirt which fits his abs and chest buttons were open its too intimidating for his weak heart too intimate that he cannot be standing as his knees are trembling