All Strings Attached

2.

I don't know what to say other than I am so sorry. I truly am sorry.

I cannot stop thinking about all the pain that I have caused you, especially towards the end. I was awful to you and I am so sorry I didn't see that.

I told you that you deserve all the love in the world but I gave you nothing. I am sorry, I know I treated you poorly. I am so sorry for all the times you stayed up all night because you were crying from the pain that I caused when I didn't make you feel like you were good enough.

I am the one who isn't good enough. For you. For anyone. And I'm sorry I didn't see that earlier. Please, never let anyone treat you like that again. You are more than good enough. Don't let anyone treat you the way I treated you. Like absolute garbage. I'm so sorry for what I did. Words cannot describe the anger and frustration I have at myself for what I did to you. And all I can manage to say is that I'm sorry. I truly am.

I'm sorry for all of the pain that I caused you. I'm sorry for every time my pride got in the way, for every time I let ego take the upper hand, for all the things I couldn't do for you, for all the words I said, and especially all the words I would've never wanted to say but still did, because I had my own issues.

I am so sorry for having dismissed you. I am sorry for how I left you hanging. I am sorry for ruining your trust and I am sorry that you built walls to protect your heart because I broke it into a million pieces that I'll never be able to pick up. The pieces I'll never be able to fix.

I am sorry for all the times I hurt you and someone else had to cheer you up. I am so sorry that I wasn't there for you.

I am so sorry for every time your heart ached and it was my fault. I am so sorry that I hurt you so much. I'm sorry I didn't give you the love and respect you deserved and expected from me.

I am so sorry because I know you're scared to say "I love you" to anyone ever again, because I hurt you to the point where these words sound bitter to you and you won't be able to say them to someone again without thinking about how I hurt you at least a million times.

I am sorry for everything I put you through.

I pushed you away to the point where you had to leave and I am so sorry for not fighting for you, for not fighting for us. I am so stupid for letting you go and I will regret that every day for the rest of my life. You were the best thing that ever happened to me and I hope that one day you will be able to forgive me for turning your world upside down. I'm sorry.

With love,
The girl who broke you down 

A//n: I am speechless. Sorry I read it again before publishing it and I am all teary eyed and cannot say much.

Hope you like this <3

With Love,
Maria