"Just stop it" she whispered to herself, her knees hugged to her chest as her thoughts ran a mile a minute. She desperately tried to convince herself that she was wrong, but her brain always came up with new solutions which frustrated her even more. He'd never given her any reason for her to not trust him. It wasn't even that she didn't trust him, she just knew how easily replaceable she was. He told her that he loved her 5+ times a day but in her head, there was always someone he could love more than he loved her. He told her that she was gorgeous and amazing, but in her head, he could find someone who was way prettier and more amazing than she was. She wasn't anything special so she didn't see why he'd ever think the was. A tear slipped from her eye indicating that her brain had once again hurt her more than he ever could. She knew why it hurt more this time, because this time, she was in love with him. She didn't want to believe that he'd ever leave her for somebody else but there was always that possibility that he would, a possibility that her brain wouldn't let her forget. It was like her brain was constantly torturing her and laughing at her pain, laughing at how pathetic she was.
"Maybe he'd be better with someone else" she took a few shaky breaths as more thoughts ran riot in her head. 'You're too far away, he deserves someone he can see all the time', 'stop being so selfish with him', 'you've seen how many girls like him, give them a chance'. They never stopped, each one stinging a lot more than the last.
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Notes From An Overactive Thinker
General FictionThis series consists of all the short writings that i write in my notes, most of it will give you an insight into how my brain works and most of them are just little pieces I wrote when I had the inspiration. Enjoy <3
