Lost Memories | A Liskook Adaptation

Chapter 137: My Fear

Lalisa is indeed a person who has never been afraid of anything.

She's not afraid of how ruthless her opponent is, and she's not afraid of danger or getting hurt. Even with A, L, and R being this cruel, it only further excites her stubbornness and passion. Being afraid of them? That's impossible! But, when S's profile appears in her heart, a certain feeling of familiarity as if it's something that has been asleep inside her body for a long time, suddenly invades her heart.

That feeling is fear.

Her fear toward S.

He's like a bottomless pit. Quiet, mysterious, powerful, and cold. You cannot turn back. The moment you do, you'll be trapped inside.

"What I'm afraid of is S. After finishing saying these words, Lalisa digs her hand into her long hair in frustration. She lowers her head and continues smoking. Bambam's jaw drops. He feels his head spin as he murmurs, "Therefore...... you feel that their ultimate goal is you?"

Lalisa keeps quiet for a moment before answering, "Mm. Jungkook said that we need to find the link between those cases from before. But what he didn't mention was that there is already a link between them, which is me. The invitation letter was sent to me; the rhymes needed me to solve them because only I understand them; the dance was for me. Do you remember that in L's dance video, A and R were standing on the left, leaving a big space on the right? Whom was it reserved for? It was for me and S."

Bambam's eyes widen and he's speechless. He then hears Lalisa continue fretfully. "In the end, the choice between you and Forensic Investigator Kim was also decided by me. The unlocking of the passcode was my fourth finger of my right hand. What does this mean? And the person they were going to kill was Taehyung, who has feelings for me, and not you."

Bambam says almost losing his voice, "I get it now! So the three of them has done so much because they want you to be the lady of their camp?"

Lalisa remains quiet for a second and then says, "You shut up! Can you not be an idiot at times like this?! I feel that they've done all these not for the sake of committing crimes, but rather it is to transmit a message."

Bambam asks curiously, "What kind of message?"

Lalisa watches the smoke rise between her fingers. She strokes her head and looks outside of the window. "To have me and everybody know the existence of the seven-member organization and their spirit. To let people feel fright while showing kindness and power to me, torturing my will and destroying my spirit." She pauses and then says, "Perhaps my undercover life in the past makes them feel that I will return to their center in the end and become S's woman. All of this could be understood as calling out to me. Their way of calling."

She says these words calmly while Bambam feels cold sweat run down his spine as he listens. But Lalisa's explanation makes sense!

"No! They are absolutely crazy! They're dreaming! You are a member of the Black Shield Team, and you won't separate from Jungkook! What does this have to do with them!" he shouts.

Lalisa looks out of the window, inhales from the cigarette and doesn't say a word. Bambam thinks for a second and asks, "So....... that S guy, what role does he play in all of this? Is he the planner?"

"Probably," Lalisa answers lightly, "Even in the case from five years ago, he never showed himself and never committed the crimes directly. He only stood behind them."

"But it's been so many years that they haven't appeared and he hasn't done anything to you. Why now?....." Bambam says full of doubt.

Lalisa doesn't have an answer to this question either. She remains quiet for a good while before responding, "I don't know. I don't really know what happened back then either. But now that they've decided to take action again......maybe it's because I'm not living the life that they first arranged for me; or maybe because another three of them died because of me; or maybe because Jungkook and I are together again and the Black Shield Team insists on finding the truth about what happened back then." She lifts her eyes to look at Bambam, "Therefore, this battle is finally here."