⚠️warning! - mentions of suicide⚠️
All Y/n wanted was for Leigh to come to the suicide and grief event. When she had asked her girlfriend, Leigh became almost defensive. Asking 'why?'.
Y/n sighed softly as she sat down next to her girlfriend of 2 months. She placed a hand on Leigh's tucked in leg.
"Because this event means alot to me. It means alot to me because.. I am a suicide survivor, Leigh.."
The widow laughed, not believing a single word that left her lover's mouth before noticing Y/n wasn't laughing.
"You're- you're serious right now?"
The y/h/c woman nodded, looking down. Laughing humourlessly, Leigh shot up from the couch. Shaking her head as she paced around.
"Why are you telling me this shit? God! I already dealt with this when i lost Matt! Why are you like this?!"
Y/n frowned as tears filled her eyes. She stood from her seat. "Well I'm not Matt, Leigh! I'm sorry that I even asked, had I known this is the reaction I would get I would never have bothered!"
Leigh got angrier at her girlfriend's answer. Shaking her head and turning her back to her.
"I'm sorry that I couldn't see a point in life anymore Leigh, but that was before I met you. You made me want to live. But if you want even go to an event where I want to help others like me, all because you're still so caught up on Matt.. then I'll just leave.. If only you could have told me I wasn't as good as him."
Y/n grabbed her jacket, before leaving she sighed softly.
"If you bother going, I'll be performing a song I wrote.. I know you used to like my music"
With these final words, she left the Shaw woman standing alone in her house, thinking about her late husband and her seemingly Ex girlfriend.
~~Four weeks later~~
Y/n walked around the event holding her guitar, greeting people as they walked by. As she stepped onto the large stage, she instinctively looked for one face in the crowd, but didn't find her.
She looks down, disappointed but put on a fake smile.
"Hello everyone, how are we doin?" The crowd cheered, making her laugh softly. "So, as you will know this is an event to celebrate those we have lot to suicide and mental health. As a survivor I want to thank you all for supporting this event."
With one last smile, Y/n began to play the guitar softly as the band behind her began to play.
"I uh, wrote this song a few months ago after finding my reason to live.. if She's out there.. I love you"
"I open up my heart, you can love me or not
There's no such thing as sin, let it all come right in
I wanna make some mistakes, I wanna sleep in the mud
I wanna swim in the flood, I wanna fuck 'til I'm done
I like whiskey on ice, I like sun in my eyes
I wanna burn it all down, so let's start a fire
I wanna be lost, so lost that I'm found
Naked and laughing with my blood on the ground"
As Y/n sang, Danny (Matt's brother) listened and watched as his brother's widow's girlfriend sang, but no Leigh in sight.
"I am here, I am here
I've already seen the bottom, so there's nothing to fear
I know that I'll be ready when the devil is near
I am here, I am here
All of this wrong, but I'm still right here
I don't have the answers, but the questions is clear
Let me ask you
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Let me ask you
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Let me ask you"
Grabbing his phone, he called the woman. "Leigh? Where are you?".
"May the light be upon me
May I feel in my bones that I am enough
I can make anywhere home
My fingers are clenched, my stomach's in knots
My heart it is racing, but afraid I am not
(Afraid I am not)
I am here, I am here
I've already seen the bottom, so there's nothing to fear
I know that I'll be ready when the devil is near
'Cause I am here, I am here
All of this wrong, but I'm still right here
I don't have the answers, but the questions is clear
Let me ask you
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Let me ask you
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Let me ask you"
The widow listened as she heard her lover singing through the phone, tears streaming down her face.
"I can think of one thousand places
Much worse than this
But I am here, I am here
I've already seen the bottom, so there's nothing to fear
Know that I'll be ready when the devil is near
'Cause I am here, I am here
All of this wrong, but I'm still right here
I don't have the answers, but the questions is clear
Let me ask you
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Let me ask you
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Where does everybody go when they go
Oh, let me ask you"
Without answering, the woman began to run to the event. Hoping to catch Y/n in time to make up for her mistake.
"Oh let me ask you
Yeah!
Woah-oh-woah-oh-woah
So Let me ask you"
Once she got to the event, no music played, only people laughing, smiling and celebrating. At the front of the event stood a large board covered in people whom had taken their own lives. In the center of the board was an all to familiar face, Matt.
"She left Leigh" Leigh turned to the voice, Danny stood with his hands in his pockets. His face filled with disappointment.
"W-where did she go?" Danny shrugged.
"This whole event was for you to in a way say goodbye to him ya know, Y/n organised this whole thing for you. She asked me for help, only for you to not show up".
"Danny where is she?!" She begged, grabbing onto his shirt for dear life. He sighed and gently removed her hands from himself.
"She went back to her old place to pack, She's.... she's leaving"
