I'm sorry.. Tommyinnit Angst

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(A/N: Thanks you guys so much for all of the reads :D I'm really happy about it thank you guys so much, also make sure you let me know if I miss anything TW's or anything like that also sorry I haven't really mentioned alot of people other than like Tommy tubbo and Wil I forgot about everyone else I will mention them in this chapter sorry again also sorry I haven't updated in awhile I've been busy and I'm excited to start a new story)

TW: Mention of SH, ED, Underage drinking, Suicide attempt

I promised..

I knew I wasn't gonna be able to keep it

I didn't want to make Tubbo feel bad

I just need to be better at hiding it

You should just give up

They don't care-

I just blocked the voice out

I walked out of my room to see Dream, George, Sapnap, Tubbo, Niki, and Wilbur sitting on the couch

I looked in the kitchen to see Techno and Phil cooking breakfast

(A/N: btw its morning rn in the book)

I walk over and sit down on the chair in the living room and turn on my spotify

"Theres something on my shoulder, I hope I don't get older"

"Every girl breaks my heart, your boyfriend doesn't like art"

"I'm sad that vine is dead, your bitch she give me head"

(A/N: Tell me if you know the song and you should definitely check out my playlist it is really good)

I spaced out for abit

"BREAKFAST IS READY" Phil yelled from the kitchen

I got knocked out of my thoughts from his yelling

I just stayed sitting there

"Tommy aren't you coming to eat?"

"I'm not that hungry"

My stomach growled blowing my cover

"Come eat some food" Wilbur said.

"I don't feel like eating"

Before he could say anything back I walk back up to my room

I lay down in my bed letting my thoughts take over.

Wow your so stupid

You could've came up with a way better excuse but you decided to stick with "I don't feel like eating"

Useless

I could feel like tears swelling in my eyes. I quickly wipes them away but they quickly came back a rolled down my cheek. I went over to lock the door. I got out a bottle of alcohol I've been hiding from everyone. I took a sip. But soon without even realizing the bottle was empty.

I got out my blade and a bottle of pills with tears spilling out of my eyes

Are you this weak

Suck it up and stop being a crybaby

You are so weak

Stupid

Useless

Crybaby

Fat

Ugly

I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE (Italix is thinking if you forgot)

I quickly got a notebook and a pencil and brought my blade, pills, and the notebook and pencil in to the bathroom locking both door into the bathroom. I just sit there thinking.

If I do this everyone's problems will go away

They will be happy when I'm gone

I will do anything to make them happy

I start writing a suicide notes

The note says:

Dear Mom and Dad

I hope your happy. This is your fault I ended up like this. You knew I was hurting but all you did was make it worse. Dad you beat me everyday until 1 year ago when you and mom stopped fighting. And mom you ignored me when you knew dad was making me hurt. You just sat there when you knew he was beating me in the other room. You knew it all but still you did nothing. I'm sorry it had to end this way. But it's for the best. I hope your happy <3

Love Tommy <3

The second note:

Dear all of my friends <3

I just wanted to say goodbye. I love you all so much. You guys made me happy. You guys gave me hope. But I guess its all going to waste now. I'm sorry I can't deal with it anymore. The voices in my head, my parents. I cant deal with it. This was only for the best. Please keep smiling for me I love you all. You guys are everything and always will be. Please tell the fans that I will miss them. I love you all so dearly. Tubbo you are my best friend and nothing can change that. You brought light when I was in a very very dark place. Wilbur you are like a brother to me. I love you so much brother. I will miss you so much Wilby. Never forget that. Philza you are like a dad to me. I love you so so so much. All of you mean so much to me. You guys are like family. Technoblade you are just like a brother. I felt like I could finally relate to someone when I'm around you. You make me feel something that I've never felt before. Just remember I love you all. I guess this is goodbye. Never forget I love you all and keep smiling and be happy for me. o7 <3. (A/N: Sorry I got lazy)

Love, Tommy<3

I quickly put those by the door as a picked up the blade

I put it against my skin and pushed down as hard as I can

I repeatedly did that for awhile until I started to pass out

Before I passed out I quickly put all of the pills in my mouth and took them.

"goodbye.."

I passed out with a smile and tears on my face

Tubbos POV

I finish breakfast and go up to my room

I open my door and go to my shared bathroom

I tried to open but it's locked

I knocked no answer

I knocked again no answer

I knocked one last time no answer

I go worried and went to Tommys door
His bedroom door was also locked

I knocked over and over and over no response

I quickly got worried and started to tear up

I went down stair to get Wil

"H-hey Wil"

"What is is Tubbo?"

"W-well my bathroom d-door is locked and T-tommys door is l-lockes too"

"Shit.."

Wil quickly got up and ran upstairs

Wilburs POV

I ran upstairs and started banging on Tommys door

He still wouldn't answer

I was trying to break down the door

I could feel the hot tears roll down my cheeks

The door fell to the floor

I broke it down

No one was in the room. I looked around, I walked to the bathroom. I was locked. I knock and there was no answer. I was sobbing at that point. I kept on trying to knock down the door. I ended up knocking it to the floor. I looked into the bathroom..

(A/N: CLIFFHANGERRRR SORRY I HAD TOO)