𝙻𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙵𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 {𝙼𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚢 𝚡 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛}

𝙎𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧?

~∆ This chapter may be triggering to some, it contains death idealization, please proceed with caution or skip ∆~

I looked around and noticed all of the animals were running away, they seemed spooked. I hummed curiously before turning back and going to walk towards the exit of the forest only to freeze when I heard a twig snap from behind me

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I hesitated before looking behind me, I didn't see anything so I assumed it was an animal, I sighed and turned back towards the exit and took a couple steps forward before I heard rustling, I turned back around now on guard. I waited for a while expecting an animal to jump out, what I most definitely was not expecting was a masked figure to come lunging at me, knocking me to the ground as well as knocking the air out of me

On top of me was a person wearing a strange mask, it had holes for them to look out of, above the holes were neatly painted on eyebrows, and it even had lips painted on, the person wore a yellow jacket that looked like it had blood splattered all over it. They pressed a knife to my throat and looked down at me seemingly waiting for a reaction. I wasn't scared, I didn't understand why I wasn't scared, and even more confusing was the fact that I almost hoped they'd kill me

What was wrong with me? Had I really fallen that far?

I looked back at them with a blank expression waiting for them to end me, hoping for then to end me. As I waited thoughts of things from my past and present made me realize why I wanted them to kill me. I didn't want to live anymore, I didn't want to have to deal with anymore of the stress or those shitty memories, I didn't want to deal with anything anymore, and I wanted an easy, guilt free way out

I smiled as I felt tears well up in my eyes "Please kill me..." I couldn't believe those words had left my lips, was I really that pathetic? I mentally slapped myself for being so absolutely pitiful, the fact that I said that only made me cry, I felt the hot tears roll down my cheeks as my eyes stung and a lump formed in my throat. It seemed to have been taken aback by my response and just stared down at me, it took the knife away from my throat and I squeezed my eyes shut

It got off of me and crouched beside me "Why do you want to die?" Their voice was a bit deep and hoarse and their tone was serious, I looked over at them and wiped my eyes. They tilted their head to the side and just stared at me waiting for me to answer, I shrugged and looked up at the sky "I have no reason to live..." I still couldn't believe the words coming out of my mouth, I couldn't believe how pessimistic and pitiful I was being

"Ok, but even so." They seemed genuinely curious and abit... Upset? I didn't understand them, why question me? I sighed heavily "I have plenty of reasons..." I closed my eyes, my thoughts wandered back to my childhood making tears well up in my eyes once more. I covered my eyes with my arm and tried to keep calm

They scoffed before standing up "Go home." And with that they walked away. I wanted them to come back, I wanted them to kill me, I wanted to stop the pain, I wanted to disappear. I began to sob, I couldn't stop the tears and I couldn't stay quiet, everything was so overwhelming, the memories, the memories of that man, and the memories of that incident, and realizing just how alone I was

I held my head in my hands and continued to cry loudly, I couldn't stop, and a part of me didn't want to, a part of me wanted to let it out, to cry until I couldn't cry anymore, to scream until I lost my voice. I started to feel light headed and tired, I didn't want to move, and I didn't think I'd be able to, so I cried myself to sleep on the forest floor

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I opened my eyes to a blinding ray of light shining down through an opening in the trees above, I shielded my eyes and squinted looking around. I remembered everything that had transpired last night and sighed, I sat up and stretched popping my aching joints. I looked around again noticing the animals were back, I smiled and sat on my legs. As I looked around I noticed the stranger from last night leaning against a tree snoring quietly

I watched them cautiously as I stood up slowly, I made my way towards them and crouched down in front of them. I was curious as to what they looked like, I knew they were a killer, obviously, but I really didn't care, if they killed me they killed me. I carefully reached for the mask only for my wrist to be grabbed by them, they groaned as they lifted their head to look at me, "Bit rude to sneak up on a sleeping person." Their tone was sarcastic and they scoffed

I pulled my hand back and sat down on my legs "Sorry, curiosity got the better of me." I laughed nervously, I'd always been a very curious person and I had a habit of letting my curiosity control my actions, they scoffed "Don't you know curiosity killed the cat?" They tilted their head "And satisfaction brought it back." I smiled and they seemed amused by my response "You're a strange one." Their tone softened but was still so serious, I shrugged with a smile

They stretched out with a loud groan before cracking their neck, they looked over at me before standing up "Go home." This time they stayed put to make sure I left, I stood up with a sigh and looked up at them before finally leaving the woods and heading back home