I Hated You

nine | lucas|

Fuck everyone, I never liked the world. It's all fucked up, I never really talked as a kid. My parents were gone, Fabian was so fucking annoying. And nonna and nonno were just trying to make me feel home. I never had a home.

Home should be a place where you feel safe, free and happy. I never had that, I'm so generous, and happy that they took me in. But do I deserve it? No. I don't deserve anything. I always wanted to be seen, but after a little while I think it just stopped.

I loved how computers worked, I started making a business. I already my ideas and stuff. I want to become a CEO of my own security company. I loved hacking and stuff. And I'm pretty good at it. But now with Aaron Monet? I don't have a fucking clue what's going on.

I always knew what was going on, but now? I didn't, and of course it feared me. I hated fear, hated being scared because you never knew what's gonna happen. I was always seven steps ahead of a person, now I had no fucking clue what was going on. I did know one thing though.

Save Noah.

Noah struggled with drugs. He wasn't proud about it, but he did talk about it. Me and Fabian knew the day we met him. He straight up told us. 'I'm a addict, and I deal drugs.' Noah didn't have a great family like Fabian did. His parents were thief's, his grandparents were thief's. He could not not be a thief.

But we fought threw every single thunder, now we are in LA together trying to live life, but a girl ruins it. I need Fabian to get close to her, i was never selfish. But now? I was more than selfish.

I need answers otherwise it would eat me up. I do strongly think that Fabian is gonna do it. I hate to say it but girls are naïve. Don't think River is, she has a strong mind. I guess she really loved her dad, it's painful not having parents.

She is gonna give answers to Fabian.

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hi! sorry for this late fucking chap, but im super duper busy no joke, and let's be fucking fr i forget that i write a book and that i have wattpad.

it's bad y'all it's really bad. this chap is short bc i love short chaps. I wrote in lucas his pov what do y'all think?

hope you guys have a wonderful day/night.

love ruweda!