"what? what are you saying?
i grabbed him harder...
"the baby she's holding is mine... i know because she cheated on you. she's just a whore... she told me she loved me. kyle said.
i let go of him...
"aera? please tell me this is not true... i teared up..
"sorry, francis...
i started laughing...
"SORRY?! i thought you were the one... you know? something felt oddly wrong about your story... i never had sex with you before. it's just all in your mind...
"no it's not. we really had sex babe.
"don't "babe" me. go run after your boyfriend... i gave you the world. i actually thought we would have an amazing family... turns out that wasn't my baby, and you're not mine either...
i ran away...
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i balled my eyes out the whole day.
i feel like my depression is coming back...
i mean, i don't feel good. there's a hole in my heart and this time...
i don't think i will survive...
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i decided to take my things before my body stops me.
once depression starts, your body stops.
i grabbed my things...
and then i heard her voice...
"francis! please! it hurts! i want you! kyle meant nothing to me! aera said, crying.
"so why did you fuck him? i asked.
"i was high on drugs! i didn't know what was going on. that was the first time i used drugs!!
"aera, i really can't trust you... i feel depression coming...
"baby, come here... at least get your last hug...
i was hesitant, but, i went upstairs and gave her a hug...
the last thing i remember is getting stabbed with a needle.
