"ben?" i ask, "what's up?"
suddenly my brother takes a step to the left and the person i loved most, but the person who i didn't want to see the most was stood there.
"hey babe." josh says walking up closer to me
i throw my arms round him as he kisses the top of my head.
"missed you." he says
"i missed you too." i say pulling away from the hug, "can i just grab something? i'll be right back out."
"sure." josh says as i go back into my room and shut the door
i walk in to see phil faced the other way getting dressed.
"alright?" i ask
"fine." he says
"i didn't know he was going to be here." i say
"course you didn't." he says
"what's that meant to mean?" i ask
"don't worry." phil says, "now get them away from the door so i can fucking leave."
"what do you want me to say?!" i ask
"just say you'll meet them downstairs or something" he says
"fine." i say walking back towards the door
"hi again." i say, "i'm gonna be ten minutes, can i meet you downstairs?"
"yeah okay." ben says, "what are you doing?"
"don't worry." i say closing the door
"happy now?" i ask, "they've gone."
"cool." phil says walking out
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what's his problem? he literally knew i had a boyfriend. i make sure i grab my phone before going downstairs to find josh. i see him talking to jack in the kitchen.
"hey." i say walking up behind him and placing one of my hands on his back
"hey baby." he says putting his arm round me
"what were you two talking about?" i ask
"just footy." jack tells me
"can i talk to you?" i ask looking up at josh
"course." he says
i hold his hand leading him out into the hallway.
"obviously i'm so happy you're here, but how long are you here for?" i ask
"just the day." josh says, "thank your brother, it was his idea."
"i will." i say, "you can go talk to jack if you want?"
"no i wanna spend time with you." he says
"i've got some training to do." i say, "but you can come out with me?"
"i'd love too." he says
"cool follow me." i say walking outside
as we walked out, i saw phil by himself doing tricks. he notices us coming out, but just carries on.
"you know i'm fighting every urge to not scream his name." josh says
"i could take you over to him if you want?" i ask
phil was pissing me off, i know it must be annoying to see him, but he's the one who told me to stay in the relationship.
"wait really?" josh asks
"sure." i say, "looks a bit bored anyways."
"hey phil." i say, "this is josh."
"cool hi." phil says
"gonna act like you care?" i ask
"nice to meet you." he adds
"can i get a photo?" josh asks
"yeh." phil says posing
"so we'll see you later right?" i ask him
"why are you ignoring me?" i ask
"you can't do this." phil says
i knew exactly what he was talking about. don't get me wrong, i felt awful. but i didn't want to break up with josh.
"did i miss something?" josh asks
i look at phil, "if you don't tell him i will." he says
"can we go talk privately?" i ask josh
"no need to do it privately, i know everything." phil says
"shut up." i say grabbing josh's hand and dragging him away
"you're girlfriends a slut!" phil shouts
"what did he just say?" josh asks
i was hurt, but in a way i knew he didn't mean it. it was just out of jealousy.
"please can we not get into this right now." i say
"no one calls my girlfriend a slut without messing with me." josh says
"please." i say, "don't. he's not worth wasting your time."
"clearly the dudes a dick." he says
"trust me." i say, "i know."
i look back over my shoulder, phil sees me and mouths 'sorry'. i just ignore him, he can't call me slut after everything he said about dating josh and just sleeping with him whenever.
once we get back inside i take josh up to my room, to have the talk.
"lets go sit on my bed." i say closing the door behind us
"so obviously, when you're in a relationship, you need to be 100% honest, and i feel bad not saying this earlier. i.. i know i could never apoligise enough for this. and there are no excuses, but that doesn't mean i don't feel absolutely awful." i say, "i hooked up with phil."
"you what?" josh asks
"i'm really sorry." i say, "but you have to know, i regret it. if i could go back, i wouldn't of done it."
"why would you sleep with someone else when you're with me?" he asks
"i can't believe you y/n, thought i could trust you." josh says getting up off the bed.
"josh please." i say
"no." he says, "don't text me."
