My Brutal Love

Fell For You

After I had my episode, and had to have Mike calm me down.. he took me to his house to get me cleaned up. Tre had left and went to his own house. I still had a few tears fall down my face here and there. Nothing to crazy. We went inside and Mike took me downstairs to his room, his house smelled of apple or maybe peaches, it made me feel at home in a nice and caring family and not some place that I know can hurt me like my girlfriends place or my own. Where ever I am she is always there too

"Wait here" Mike said softly. Mikes tone of voice was all I needed right now. It made me forget what was going on and my situation.

Mike came back with a pair of fresh cloths from the dryer. I went to the bathroom to change, to get out of the ragged clothes that I was wearing. Stuff my mom bought me... but it was all she could afford. I probably could have just changed in the edroom but it would have been weird if Mike was there. I went back into Mikes room, Mike was sitting on the edge of his bed strumming a few chords on his base guitar

"Hi..." I say

"Hey" Mike says back 

"Mom is making dinner it should be done soon" 

"Oh ok cool" 

My phone started to ring, scaring me a bit. I pick it up not reading who it said the call was coming from. A girl on the other line

"Hello?"

"B.J where are you?" my girlfriend says

"I'm hanging with Mike why?"

"Oh we had plans remember"

"we-we did? Well I'm sorry but I don't remember making plans. So you're gonna have to cancel cus I'm busy" I say kinda agitated 

"Really you can't fucking spend quality time with your girlfriend" Whatshername scoffed. I hung up the phone tossing it onto Mike nightstand. I lay myself on his bed, with a big sigh 

"Is everything alright?" Mike asks

"y-yeah" I say

Why did I just lie. why am I too scared to tell him the truth? Is it because I am so used to being abused that to this point that I think everyone is my abuser? Why couldn't have I just listened to Mike and Tre in the first place

"Bill are you ok?" Mike asks 

Snapping out of my thoughts all I do is nod

"Are you sure? Did something happen on the phone that your not telling me?"

"No I'm fine"

"Boys, dinner!" Mikes mom yells from upstairs 

Mike and I head upstairs to the kitchen where Mike's mom had made us pizza. Easy when you have guests. I finished my pizza first, like always.

"Hey Mikey" I say

First time I called him by that name... Mikey

"Yeah Bill" Mike said 

"I uh I want to go home my mom w-wants me home" 

Dumb ass why don't you just stay with Mike if you know that you are going to get beat, harmed in any way. Fuck I did it again, made something up just to see what the hell my girlfriend wants. Its like I'm waiting to get murdered. At some point I know that she is going to try.

Mike gave me a ride home. I didn't bother to put back on my cloths. Mikes cloths feel warm and cozy and comforting. My girlfriend wasn't happy to see me with Mike, let alone him giving me a ride 

Of course the next day I came to school with a cut on my face,  and a black eye. I tried to not be in much contact with anyone but Mike spoted me anyway.

"What the hell Billie! Look at yourself. You lied to me... Why did you lie?" Mike said in a ferm but also soft tone of voice 

"I-I'm sorry I-" I broke into tears yet again. My little episode. I clenched onto Mikes shirt with my head leaning on his shoulder, his arms around me in his tight embrace

"Its ok"